It's been a rocky hard last year,  but this year has started alittle rocky although it will be better I'm sure.  As hard as it will be to celebrate my birthday this year I will need to work through the hardships and make grandma proud!  I've made the decision for my birthday it will be time to get a tattoo in memory of her.  Thinking of how she has been gone almost a year saddens me,  but makes me realize I'm strong and I know I'm making her proud by really keeping myself together.  One day I'll be able to go to the cemetery,  but that is a real tender issue with me.  Time will tell!