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im sick of the bull shit so dont message me if you're not willing to have a serious one on one 100% committed D/s relationship or if you're over 28! and yes I am single, my exDom and I broke up in October and quite frankly I should have left earlier on

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7/5/2013 6:50:32 AM
having all these people message me because of my emo journal posts has been an eye opener... No one beats my Dom and even if its silly and ends in disaster, I'm putting all bets on him :)

7/4/2013 7:41:27 PM
lifes just not fair...I want to go and do all the fun stuff this holiday that we did when I was little. Go bug hunting, have a bonfire, play capture the flag: We used to be out all night. Now my mother and sister make fun of me for wanting to do all those things.... I wish I was with my Dom he'd make everything lots of fun but he's not really messaging or talking with me which has me all scared. I wish I could believe everything is ok but from all the crap in my past I've learned not to get my hopes up.

6/30/2013 8:24:28 PM
Someone save me, I don't want to do this anymore. My mother has given up on me and tells me all the time so why must she keep me away from the one person who cares about me? Heck with all this drama my family has caused he's probably sick of me and I'll lose the only good thing in my life....My mother and father dont care, my friends never call, my sister wont talk to me, and the worst part its all my fault...I didn't keep my secret of being kinky, I slipped up because I was young and had no one to guide me so I was used by some bad people who've turned me into this shell of a person. I cant help my headaches when I get stressed and I cant get anything done when I have them so I've become a loser. Someone no one cares about, someone who's not worth the air they breath or the dirt beneath their feet. I'm nothing at all, I should be left to rot somewhere, I don't deserve love or happiness but I want it so bad. I want to be free from everything, from this stress from school, from my family, from my medicine, from all the dark things that haunt me. I want to love and be loved and be held and praised by him. I want to live happily ever after and be his princess. I want so much more then I deserve. I want a new life, a better life. Why can't I do anything? What is wrong with me?

6/23/2013 7:56:24 AM
I have done nothing so far this summer and it sucks. I need to do something productive and I would really like to do some henna ink tattoos or learn sign language. Not having money kinda kills those ideas though :p

6/10/2013 7:11:03 PM

Since you're such a handsome sexy man...I think you deserve a much better looking tattoo and lets be honest I'll have to see it more then you will. I know you started out on a bumpy road but you worked for a new better life. So instead of deathly skulls you deserve a tattoo to show your new life. I think you should have a beautiful phoenix with room left for our zodiac signs and the new signs that will become part of life one day. Don't judge me...I'm just crazy in love with my Dom


5/31/2013 2:38:24 PM
Updated my tumblr blog today...still at only a hundred followers :P I got really sad though since all of the other sub girls kept posting about how their Doms were coming over and doing stuff with them. I hate not being able to speak with you and play :( Pleas put some pictures up on facebook or here so I have something to swoon over...Maybe ill be weird and print them and...yea i know im weird. I love you so much and can't wait to be with you! and yes im being a good girl even though its hard for me. Kisses <3

5/30/2013 3:36:10 PM
I miss you so much my love. I write everyday in my journal here at my home...but it would probably be more effective if I write here wouldn't it? Well today was my last day of school so now im free to dream naughty dreams without a care! If only I could hear your sexy voice, Id be so much happier.

3/10/2013 3:31:51 PM

Many people ask on here when they first got into kink and even though i knew about the lifestyle for quite awhile i really got into it about a year ago when i started reading more erotica (and no im not talking about 50 shades of grey i only recently read the first book). In a way you could say ive always been a kinkster at heart. I knew at a very young age that I wanted a strong man to keep me together because even at that age i realized i was weird and spacy and a whole lot of different. For one thing i always played weird games that in the kink world would be thought of as a humiliation thing. With my one friend we would always play this game where we dressed up in princess gowns and would be somewhere fancy. Then the "mean" girl would have a magic wand and basiclly humiliate the other one. When i played barbies my doll would always get "caught" in the shower or her clothes would "just so happen" to fall off. Now that i think about it i realize how weird it was. My family knew of course i mean how could they not? I played barbies with them and they would always be around the cornor from where i played. I was always boy crazy and wanted a boyfriend even in grade school. I never really knew what we would do but i always had the need to have someone. I was bullied when i was young but for some reason stuck around those who did. Now a days im the one who talks down to others even though in my heart i never want to upset others i cant help it. We were only in grade school but me and the boys would talk about strippers and my one friend always made a refernce to his dick when he could. In middle school i was better but still different. My biggest thing then ( and somewhat today) was to go roller skating and dance as dirty as possible. I watched a lot of music videos on BET when i was little and had always been into dancing. I was Still boy crazy and discovered i could meet boys onilne. Eventually i meet a guy who introduced the world of masterbation to me. I wont go into much detail as it upsets me that i ever sunk that low but it got to the point i was obsessed. I eventually got caught and had to begin "getting help." I was in counciling from dealing with family issues but now it was about me talking to pervs online to fulfill some void. Yes, me whoring out was not good but i never thought sex was bad. I wanted it so bad and it didnt really begin to change till i got hurt by some ass hat. But i was still needed someone to love me so even though i tamed i still contined my search through the pervs online. My family trying to stop me every step of the way. I always liked being told how much of a slut i was and reading and watching stories. I started into kink when i found humiliation stories online then i read more and more till i discovered this worl and well thats what got me here. To be honest i think it wouldnt have been so bad if i had been able to give myself an orgasum because thats where all my internet searches started as: how to have an orgasum to make my boyfriend feel better about himself

 

and thats the story i guess....I left out a lot at the end because frankly as much as i enjoyed it at the time im ashamed of it now becuse it lead to so much heart ach. Maybe if i meet a nice guy online the first time round it wouldnt have been so bad. In the end though even if it was a nicer better process i still would have ended as a kinkster because clearly i was born this way.


2/10/2013 6:26:27 PM

A lot of people have been saying I'm a fake which is truly hurting my feelings. I had a face picture if thats the issue but someone who knew me saw it so I took it down. I keep my face ridden so I don't expose my lifestyle to my family and school. I have no issue proving I'm real but I don't do nudes I'm sorry I made that mistake before. So I took what I thought to be a unique picture so to prove I'm real. I also added some fun ones cause I'm a fun gal. :)


2/3/2013 8:15:51 AM

Whenever I read a story they talk about how great the orgasm is and that it rocks your whole body with waves of pleasure. That your back archs your mind goes numb and sometimes you even pass out or squirt.

it's not fair why can't I have an orgasum? :(


1/31/2013 4:40:11 PM

I finally gave in and downloaded the sample and read the first seven chapters of 50 shades of gray. I must say I really liked it and once I started could not put it down. I heard it is not true to the lifestyle but so far it seems pretty in line. I'm not sure though if I want to download the books on my iPod or buy the actual book. If its on my iPod I can read it in class without the teachers telling me to put it away but I do like the feeling of having the book in my hands and then I have it forever. I still prefer the Dom in the online story I'm reading over Christian but that may change.

 

Here's the link if anyone wants to read this story and compare with me: stories.xnxx.com/profile511176/Faith+Michaels


1/29/2013 9:34:05 AM

I need to start writing again and write more then just smut. Maybe if I wrote down my life I'd be less confused. My mother always talks about how I lie but usually its more me being confused. Why can't things be more simple? I need to write everything out that just has to be the best way to go about it.


1/28/2013 4:46:21 PM

Ugh life sucked the big one today

 

I need some good porn and finger fucking then bed

 

Anyone know where I can find some good female puppy play porn?

 


1/27/2013 3:57:54 PM

I've been thinking a lot of my position as a sub. I do like a lot of being a sub but I act so Domme in real life. I am bi but I don't talk to girls on here since most I've been with were drama, but that's what I get for falling for an unmedicated bipolar girl. When I think about being with a girl I usually see myself as the Domme. I guess it's because I've always thought men didn't treat girls like the little princesses they are. Even as a sub they still want to be loved like in fairy tales. Being a girl I realize this but then what role does that leave me in the relationship, the brave knight? (Because honestly princes do nothing for their fortune knights work for it so in my mind are better) I wouldn't mind being a princess but I can't see anyone treating me that way guy or girl (as for guys they simply don't get us girls and not because theyre dumb or don't try but simply cuz they can't). So what is my role? Am I happy with my current role? Why am I thinking this? Why would anyone else care to read this? Why am I filled with these thoughts today?...and to end on a totally unrelated point why in fucks sake can you not text me for more then like a ten minute period and sex me up when you do? My life and emotions are confusing me deeply right now! 

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1/26/2013 7:11:59 PM

some one needs to remix beyonce's single ladies so it goes " if you like it then you shouda put a collar on it" XD


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bridgitty
 
 Age: 22
 Sydney, Australia