I have been urged, I think, to not make my profile "ho hum" or make myself look like a "pig-male." I did not join the site just for a cheap hookup or a dirty thrill. I'll admit to being wholly inexperienced, but I am absolutely serious about learning the lifestyle. I have searched a long time for my "kink," my niche in the sexual world and even with my limited experience, I think I have found it. Purely erotic to me is the submissive...surrendering yourself to someone else, trusting them...having them respect your limits, but mostly just giving control over to someone else. To me, there is nothing more erotic than that, and it is that that makes me believe I have found what I'm looking for.
About me. I'm shy...but intensely honest about who I am and what I'm looking for. I've put walls up around myself but I think only to see who cares enough to tear them down. I am not looking for a supermodel and am not one myself. I prefer the company of people older than myself. They have life experience which cannot be traded. Plus sizes are a plus, particularly in men, but women as well. If you're a kind and firm disciplinarian, I will serve at your feet loyally.
"My hands are tied, my body bruised, she got me whipped...nothin' win and nothing left to lose...and you give yourself away..."
6/24/2017 2:07:30 PM
It surprises me how overlooked verbal domination is. To be down on my knees, licking someone...sucking them...in their control...verbal domination is intensely hot. Ass in the air, under someone...verbal abuse. Intense. Whipping, spanking, torturing my cock and balls...using me. Verbal domination. Call me your slut, your whore, your bitch...as you make it happen. Tell me that I belong to you and I'm yours to be done with what you want...and I am.
2/10/2017 12:23:50 PM
I just need to be used, by whomever, for their enjoyment...I deserve none.
5/22/2016 4:29:58 PM
I would like to be fucked. I would like to be fucked not because I think I would get off on it...I don't think I would. I have a tight ass and it would probably hurt quite a bit...but the reason why I'd like to be fucked is because if you'd asked me 5 years ago, I would have said that it would be one of the last things I'd want. Now, however, it's all about breaking down and stretching boundaries. As I said in a previous entry, I'd want to be taken roughly. I wouldn't want it to be my choice. I'd want the person fucking me to have total control and ownership of my ass because to me it's all about the humiliation. That's where I'd get my enjoyment. Being held down or bent over and having something jammed in me over and over and over again as I begged for it to be stopped. The total surrender of control and the punishment for hesitation. Afterward there could be reward and gratification...or not, it would be totally up to the aggressor. My ass being slapped, being called a whore, a nothing, a slut, a fag...whatever...being verbally humiliated on top of the physical. Being forced to do what I never thought I'd do. THAT'S the attraction for me, even if I got no physical gratification. Male or female...Dom or domme, it would not matter. Being broken down does.
10/3/2013 7:31:07 AM
Is it that unusual that, for my first experience being fucked, I want it to be somewhat violent? I have had rape fantasies as long as I can remember, where I am forced down to all fours or forced to bend over a chair, a table, anything...fighting every inch of the way...only to be overpowered and taken, my struggles becoming weaker and turning to begging and pleading for it not to happen only to have them fall on deaf ears as my ass is pounded. This happens again and again until I reach a condition of acceptance.
I think one of the reasons for this the feeling of being totally dominated by someone, male or female, or male AND female, being broken down by them, being forced to do something I don't want to do, then reaching the point where I am dominated enough to accept it and do someone's bidding out of that dominance without question. Am I strange or just wanting to stretch my boundaries?
That song...has meant more to me than any song I think ever has. To me it's about redemption and letting go..starting fresh and new. To me, it shows the awesome power music can have to change, to build, to shape...to heal...to be magic. To me it is the closest to a religious experience as I think I will ever have.