Saving my old intro for future reflection: Obviously it ended for real but the concepts are important.
I decided Switching wasn't for me. Being a Domme doesn't come naturally to me. Though through conversations and talking with my Master I believe slave may be more appropriate then sub. That is the hardest thing for me. I'm a brat and I like some control, I really believe I'd enjoy topping another sub under the instruction of my Master.
My heart and mind always belonged to Him. I tried dating a bit but the idea of being with someone else never clicked. I couldn't let go of the future we had planned together, but neither could He. I still need the relationship to be a mix of vanilla and the lifestyle but we are going to figure that out together. We talked through a lot of things and I believe we can last. He is my best friend, my confidant and my Master.
I need some direction in my life and He can give that to me. We've been talking about a schedule and punishment/reward system I can follow. My weakness now is breaking bad habits. I've been doing things my way for so long. I need him here to make me actually do things because I'm not yet where I need to be. But I will be, for Him and me and Us.