Is it so hard to ask for my feelings to not be forgotten?

Can it be so hard to make me feel good about myself AND be happy?....no, it's not really but finding people who can do both is a rarity.

I want to the the light of your world just as much as you are the light of mine. 

Score for that REALLY happening: NONE.

Maybe I ask too much out of life too soon.  I may be young but I've been around this planet more times to boot.  I know what I seek and I feel as though finding it here is a joke and a half. 

I guess that maybe I've held my head in the clouds for too long and that I have let Hope reign in my heart for too long as well.

Reality is harsh and cold, giving no mercy to those Hope filled souls. 

All around is disappointment, most of it caused by me.

I'm special you know.  I will change you're life if You and I let ourselves into each other. 

I seek to deeply understand and care for a man just as much as he does me.  I shouldn't have to do a million tricks a day just for them to notice me.  They should always notice my ever glowing light and feel at ease.

I want to be the center of someone's world...maybe I'm looking in the wrong place.

No one can prove me wrong either....it's a sad shameful fact about men....they may not be all the same but they do let the same thing happen over and over.

Let go of me, I don't care.

I move on fast so don't bother missing me, you'll only hurt yourself in the long run.

Ha! How easily I turn to this.  Closure is needed in life.  Healthy closer.  Either it be family, lovers, or friends.  Closure is a good thing.  A sad thing but good.  We all say goodbye sometime.  But don't let it get you down.  Not forever at least.  Take away the good, leave behind the bad.  Time to move on.

So as I search for a Daddy Dom/Master, it's hard to tell who really wants what.  You think you have found someone but how can one be sure?  What are the fail proof questions?  I'm new and do not know how to navigate the waters clearly enough. Any help would be greatly appreciated. 

How long is long enough to finally allow yourself to be officially collared?  Should there be a trail period?  Is that even allowed?  I don't know who reads this or if anyone does...but if you do, please help me out.  I need to be sure that when I find that one who is what I want and need, that this isn't a scam, a cop-out, or fake.

I know there are many claims out there about the Doms that aren't really Doms at all but how does one tell?  I'm just lost.

I'm lost as to what basic BDSM questions you should ask before the relationship goes anywhere.  What are the things that, as a submissive, I need to know before I continue forward in the relationship?

On another note, I wish to talk to submissives/slaves who are currently owned.  I wish to talk to them to get opinions, views and advice.  If you have one, know any, or are one yourself please contact me and/or let me know.  

Thank you for you time. Have a beautiful day :)