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| Ive been here a long time off and on and am still looking. I like bondage and control, sensory deprivation and punishment. WS is totally great. Hardly anything is of the table, scat, underage, bleeding (except for light bleeding from needles), broken bones. Anything else you want to know Sir?
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Friend: If one knows he is moth to the flame does it follow that he will get burned?
Me: Do moths get burned or do they flit back and forth between desire and pain?
Friend: Pain, not punishment?
Me: not even pain, though that's part of it. Desire and fear.
Friend: Oh
Me: More to the point, the flame is just there, offering. If the moth comes, it gives what is sought.
Friend: I get it.....shit.
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Two lessons I learned this week but the one that applies to all you CM people is this: I've seen that many people here complain about "liars and fakes." I feel for all you people but I think closer to the truth is that it is extremely difficult to connect on a deeply personal level via email, text, IM or even phone conversation. There is something about engaging a person face to face at an event, or seeing their look and body language from across the room and knowing, just KNOWING that you have a lot in common. For the most part it takes a LOT of effort to do that in a two dimensional communication medium. I've met several people recently that I thought I could have a bigger relationship with, but they disappear or have busy lives and they didn't connect at the same level I did. It takes a huge amount of effort to create a connection long distance. I don't think that makes them...or me...a fake or liar, it's just life happening.
Having said ALL that (whew) there are fakes and liars here but they are pretty damned easy to spot. There age/sex/height/weight just don't align with the real world.
Here's an example of me failing another person on here. I was in a relationship with a submissive and our dynamic was Daddy/girl. We also mentally committed to the polyamory idea of playing with other people, theoretically. She and I both found ourselves being jealous of the opportunities the other would have. I cancelled two different opportunities with a person who was in town for vacation, not to see me specifically but we had plans. That person now considers me a flake and a liar and has blocked me. It makes me a little disappointed because my INTENT was not to stand him up and be a flake, nevertheless that was the impression he got from me. I like to be in integrity in all my relationships and I wasn't with him, because of my girl's desires. I vow to do better. |
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Time to update my journal. Changes in my life give me more time and interest in acquiring a full time slave/submissive. I'm looking for someone with a slave heart. Whose happiness comes from serving and desires to be used and abused by their Master. I'll teach you what I want mentally and physically but I'm not interested in breaking a willful slave and building them up to a proper slave. I will be the Master that takes care of you and takes what he wants. |
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I think I'm somewhat of an enigma in the BDSM world. I like to play intensely but I don't put off the persona of a strict, humorless Master. I wear clothes that are by societal norms, unusual, but at the same time, they aren't stereotypical leather and whip look either. I am controlling and domineering but caring and compassionate too. Being such an enigma I think it's hard for subs/slaves to tell whether we would fit well together. Oh well, I am who I am.
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Changed the picture so I'd better change the journal entry that says I'm not crazy in love with it. Because I AM crazy in love with this picture. Not the picture itself but the thought of being on a bike.
Anyway, peace to you all, except perhaps the one who chooses to be my sub, no peace for you tonight, bitch. :)
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Okay, not crazy in love with this picture but it was close to my mindset about lifestyle. I was getting ready to go to a costume party and trying on different looks with a friend. This is the one I settled on for going to the party. I love the snake coming out from under the chaps. The motorcycle picture is a couple of years old and a million years from who I am now. SO many changes going on in my life.
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You know, I'm pretty good at pushing the right buttons on a submissive. I'm not trying to brag or make you interested in contacting me, I just wanted to say it out loud for myself.
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You know what? People are too negative here, we need to focus on the positive and not on the negative. Therefore, I am setting the example. I am happy. I like who I am, I love being alive. I love having had every experience in my life, even the bad ones because they have given me something. I have grown. There are many interesting people here on CM, some I'd like as friends, if not a "relationship" and I'd enjoy hearing what they have to say about issues in the world and about this lifestyle. Even if I don't agree with everything they say. I love my friends, they bring me happiness. I love the sunshine and green grass outside my window (In December! In Utah!). Life is good.
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When you are exchanging emails and someone asks you "what do you like to do?" the best response is not "Lots of things." We're trying to get to know each other here and the textual equivalent of a shrug is not the best appproach. If you don't think you are compatible based on profile, then say something that indicates such. If you want to pursue it, try holding up your end of the conversation.
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I think profiles here have more tendency to put people off than attract people. How do you describe yourself in a way that tells readers who you are beyond just the type of kink you like. I mean, there's more to me than the 50 words in my profile can say. But how do you, the reader, figure that out and take a chance on someone that might really be interesting and fun and fulfills your needs in ways that no one else can? I don't know. I have the same problem when I read your profile.
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| Age: 20 |
| Sydney,
Australia |
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