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9/10/12 For 2 years, I have been training and molding a sub...kevinbh he is learning to be perfect for Me. he is being trained to please Me in all ways. he will be caged, collared and compliant. It has been a long, interesting road. It has not always been easy. It has, in fact, been difficult at many points...but it has always been worth it. It's fascinating, the love you can feel for someone while they're kneeling at your feet or sucking on a cum pop for your amusement... (yes, a cum pop...I'm a genius.) he is incredibly lucky to have met a woman like Myself....and though I know I am smarter than, stronger than and better than him, it is that very knowledge that compells Me to cherish him as Mine. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I'm here to explore. I'm here to play. I'm here to learn. I'm also here to teach. I don't believe in rules. I will not belong to a group. What am I interested in? Thinking people. Femdomme couples that are solid in their relationships and want to expand their circles. Potential subs that have actual *thoughts* in their heads, who don't just throw themselves at Me, begging. If you throw yourself at Me, you're doing it because you have no sense of self worth. If it sounds like a contradiction for a Dominant Female to want a sub with a sense of self worth, you don't understand Me and that's ok. I don't expect you to. The whole Dom/sub relationship starts in the mind. If you leave that part out, you have *nothing* ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Here's what I'm *not* going to do. I'm not going to fit your mold of what a Dominant Woman *should* be. I am what I am, constantly changing and growing and learning and altering who I am based on My current notions. Did you notice I capitalized My? Good. At least you're paying attention. If you can't deal with the fact that I'm a "normal" person with a Dominant streak, tough shit, go fuck yourself, leave Me alone, go annoy someone else. Was that clear? I do not wear vinyl all day. I wear sneakers and jeans and funny hats. I talk to strangers and like to make people laugh. I also like to make them whimper. I'm not a vindictive asshole, though I can be one when necessary. If you're looking for a soulless bitch, keep moving, there are plenty of those on here. I don't want to destroy you. Some of you, I want to keep around. I want to watch you change and grow and learn. I want to grow and change and learn with you. I want to make you cry. Some of you, I want to use once in a while and send you home and not hear from you for a long time, if ever. Some of you, I want to spend My life with.

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1/23/2013 7:24:04 PM

It has been an awful, horrible, shitty week.

Words cannot describe it, so I won't even bother to try.

I'm not dead...


1/17/2013 8:57:52 AM

I'd like to hear from the foot/shoe fetishists in the community...

What do you value? What kind of shoes, worn how?

Do tell...

I may even indulge some of your fantasies/requests with photos of them...


1/3/2013 5:02:08 PM

I want to get dressed up and be taken out to dinner by a nice subby man whom I can make put on panties at the restaurant.

Somewhere nice.

Somewhere it will make My subby for the night feel *very* uncomfortable wearing pink panties under his dress slacks and blazer...but feel so very, very right.

 


1/1/2013 5:52:50 PM

Maybe I'm too judgemental, but this site annoys the crap out of Me.

Everyone takes themselves so goddamn seriously.

"I'm a Dominant Woman, FEAR ME!"

And "I'm a Dominant Male seeking the one who knows her place!"

 

And yeah, I get that a lot of people here are just looking to play out a fantasy...

I guess that's just not Me.

I'm not on here posturing...
I want reality first and fantasy after that.

I want to know *you* before I beat you or put you on your knees or whatever...

This isn't a cosplay convention...step out of character for a minute.


11/10/2012 9:14:29 PM

If I haven't gotten back to you in the past few days, I'm looking to move and am super busy.

 

Why is it so f'n hard to find a realistic place to live around here?

 

FU, DC!


10/25/2012 7:58:33 PM

Monday, My pathetic little slut kevinbh is flying Me to Florida to spend some time on the beach while he works during the day. I'll be training him at night. He'll also take Me out once or twice, you can be sure of that.

He's purchased thigh high boots for himself and a cute little outfit to wear to amuse Me in the hotel room.

I'm bringing the cage, as he will be locked up when we go out.

Pathetic, needy little worm.


10/8/2012 8:19:56 PM

I posted a new picture tonight.

It's of My puppy's cock all tied up...I gave it a handle, like a little cock handbag!

He's a very well behaved puppy, except for when I allow him to get his hands or mouth on Me...then he's a very bad puppy!

he's My little panty wearing puppy slut.


10/7/2012 7:58:29 PM

Also, I'd like to direct your attention to AdmoKink's profile. The pic of him in the orange panties?

I made him take that the night we met.

I pushed a little gift bag across the table at the restaurant said, "Go put these on and send Me a picture proving you're wearing them."

He didn't even hesitate and that's the pic I got.

I've never had a more eager to please, obedient puppy. 

So yes, I have a puppy.

It's good to have pets.


10/7/2012 7:23:39 PM

"I'll suck your big purple cock to read book 3" he said to Me...

and suck My big purple cock, indeed, he will.

 

It's good to have a little puppy slut to boss around.


10/5/2012 7:17:15 PM

Today My pathetic little bitch purchased Me a new smartphone.

 

It's on its way to Me as I type this.

He bought Mine *before* he even bought his, because My happiness is more important than his own.

What an obedient little bitch...and he *knows* how lucky he is to have a Goddess like Me.


8/15/2012 7:39:43 AM

"FEMDOM BOOK"

Find a Femdom slut!

Email her!

FUCK HER TONIGHT!

 

That's one of the adds on the side of My page that I'm trying to escape.

Really?

SERIOUSLY?

Uh, no.

1. If you're searching to fuck someone tonight, go to adult friend finder. There are plenty of dumb sluts there.

2. Any woman who considers herself dominant in *any* way is not going to "FUCK YOU TONIGHT" because you wrote her an email.

3. Seriously?

Wtf.

This isn't even *about* sex. It's sexual, though it really doesn't have to be. If you're looking to get laid, you're on the wrong site. If you're looking to get laid, don't talk to Me, I find you pathetic...truly pathetic and I don't want to talk to you.

Nice day!


8/14/2012 5:05:31 PM

I come and go on this site.

I just emptied My inbox with no regard for anyone or anything.

Emptied.

If you want My attention, say something intelligent.

you have to make Me want to converse with you.

Yes, I'm like this in My vanilla life as well.

My time is precious to Me on many levels.

I will be keeping My inbox tidy.

Short, pointless emails will be deleted.

Long rambling emails will *also* be deleted.

"We should go out" emails will be scoffed at, *then* deleted.

 

I'm looking for people I can actually *talk* with before anything else.

If I cannot respect you first, I have no interest in making you crawl.

If that doesn't make sense to you, we have nothing to discuss.


7/14/2012 3:25:13 PM

The contstantly moving ads on the side of My CM page are incredibly annoying.


7/7/2012 7:42:10 PM

My bitch is coming to visit Me soon...

lucky little bitch.


4/28/2012 4:20:13 PM

you may call Me Ms. Pastry.


4/25/2012 7:29:48 PM

Spent some time with a lovely new puppy tonight.

There was fetching, and speaking and rolling over. 

Boot worship, panty wearing... 

I put him in the shower because I wanted him clean...

While he was in there, I allowed him to wash My red fishnetted feet.

Lucky puppy. 

I used him as My footstool while I sent a few texts and had a beverage...which he gladly got for Me. 

I got to use My new Wonder Woman leash! Sweet! 

Because he pleased Me, I gave him a new pair of panties.

Seriously lucky puppy.


4/17/2012 9:40:40 PM

Interesting night...

 

Entertaining and enlightening.

 

I very rarely meet people I would actually *enjoy* letting serve Me...

 

This could be fun.


4/7/2012 7:35:01 AM

Holy shit, finally back.

 

Not having a computer while living in a new place is *so* uncool.

Right now I cannot access any of My music or photos on My seemingly dead PC, which is also displeasing.

 

(Yes, I am bitching about My first world problems. Could it be worse? Of course. I'm talking about things from My current perspective.)

 

Being able to contact people makes life so much more interesting...

 

 

 


2/5/2012 9:40:08 PM

Fuck, you. I owe you nothing. Who the fuck are YOU?

YOU are a FACELESS STRANGER.

 

Crawl back into your hole, you pathetic little man.


2/5/2012 7:24:37 AM

Recently, there was puppy training.

Dog food was eaten, cute little purple bones were fetched, there was petting and scolding and heeling.

 

Lucky little kevin got to crawl up on My lap like a good dog and be rubbed for a few minutes.

Then I made him get on all fours, eat dog food and empty his wallet for Me.

After eating the dog food, I let him wash it down with a cup of cum water, as I'd been kind enough to allow him release *into* the cup hours earlier.

He just kept pulling money out and putting it on the floor in front of Me, thanking Me.

It was hysterically funny.

In the middle of it all, he paid some bills for Me.

When we were done, he cleaned the dog bowl and the bone, cleaned the towel, got rid of the can, threw the cup away, picked up the money, counted it for Me (over $300), folded it the way I like and put it in My jacket pocket. Good dog!

I particularly enjoyed that he had rug burns on his knees from scampering around in the little frilly outfit he bought specifically because he knew the color and style would please Me.

 

We spent several days together, during which, he took Me out to dinner, ironed My clothes, bought Me drinks and took care of My every need.

Every moment he spends with Me just further cements in his mind how much he lives to please Me.

 

 


1/15/2012 9:23:56 AM

kevinbh is completely devoted to My happiness.

he loves Me, lives to serve me and desires to be completely Mine.

 

All of these things are special privileges which he is currently striving to earn.

 

I don't allow just *anyone* to love Me and I certainly don't have the time to take complete control of just anyone, either.

 

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It seems as though things are settling down here a bit and I might be looking to make some local friends. Please keep in mind, I'm currently considering friendship only.

 


1/14/2012 10:10:13 AM

Today Goddess blessed me with secretarial duties of responding to suitors.  i am such a lucky slave bitch to Her...She is an amazing Goddess and if you are lucky you will be able to serve Her too.  Goddess is having Her computer fixed but will be back on line in a few days.  She wishes all of you well. 


12/5/2011 7:12:29 PM

lt's true, My slave is very lucky, and he knows it. 


12/4/2011 8:22:23 PM

l think l have a spanking fetish....also, l enjoy fine whips. 

 


11/14/2011 5:46:15 PM

Ch..ch..ch..ch..changes!!!!

 

10 points if you heard the song in your head when you read that and can tell me the artist.


9/25/2011 6:08:51 PM

The Universe is a strange place...

It likes to throw things at you all at once.

I think it's on purpose to see if you can take it.

 

Dear Universe,

I can take it.

Love,

Me


9/17/2011 2:24:31 PM

9/17/11

I'm going to clarify something.

I don't owe anyone anything.  I'm not saying that from the standpoint of a Woman in a Femdomme relationship, I'm saying it from the standpoint of a regular person.

I have a life. It is real. I don't let many people into it, whether they be here on CM or just in general. If you send Me 57 emails and I don't respond, it could be for a number of reasons.

Maybe I don't want to talk to you. No offense, but maybe you don't fit My needs. Maybe you creep Me out. Maybe I'm busy. Do I owe you an explanation? Nope. Do I mean for it to be taken offensively? Absolutely not. It's not personal and if you take it that way, you're too sensitive. We are strangers here. If a stranger not responding to your email offends you deeply, I'm sorry to hear that. If I replied to every email I got on this site, even if it was just to say sorry not interested, I'd be here for 5 hours a day.

If we start off a communication and then it just fades away...sorry, that happens, not just here but in real life too. I'm not one of those people that meets just anybody. An email that simply says "Do you need a slave?" isn't interesting to Me. No, I don't NEED anything, which is why I can afford to take My time.

I've made it clear on My profile that I need to know someone before I allow them into My life. If you have a problem with that, carry on. Again, there are plenty of people here that are just looking for *anyone* who will submit. That's not My thing.
There have been a few people I've met on this site that have been real, genuine and most important, *sane* and those people I've kept in touch with. Some of them I've met, one of them I'm in a relationship with and some I'm working on meeting.

And as far as people who call one another "fakes" I've got something for you, too.

If you're claiming to be a dominant female and you're a guy, you're a liar.

If you lie on your profile about who you are and what you do, you're a liar.

If you're on here laying bait and never talking to anyone, you're...pathetic.

The word "fake" implies that there is a mold into which one must fit.

I don't meet you or respond to you so I'm a fake?

Fuck you.

 

 

 

 


9/16/2011 5:48:05 PM

It's so amusing (and satisfying) to Me how much of a little bitch kevinbh is becoming for Me.

Everyday, it's more and more noticeable.

I send him text messages throughout the day, reinforcing his subservience to Me.

There are times when he goes numb and can barely think or function unless I instruct him.

He's beginning to become very attached to his Goddess, as was expected.

I've brought him along slowly, almost torturously...making him wait to tell Me just how completely devoted he is to making Me happy, how he exists for Me. Allowing him only to mention it in tiny ways, until he might burst from the pressure.

 

I like to take My time. When I allow someone to serve Me in the capacity that I am considering allowing kevinbh, I make them earn it. I make them prove it. I'm not easy to deal with and only a few are worthy on this level.

We haven't been together in a while...I know that when we meet next, he will throw himself at My feet, wrap his arms around My leg, grovel, whimper and tell Me how much he missed Me.

 


9/12/2011 5:37:09 AM

Some *random* person just sent Me an email saying, "I'm still being told you're a man! Be careful!" and "I got two messages telling me you're a man."

 

When I responded with, "CM says you have no profile. Why would anyone tell you anything about Me? Who's telling you I'm a man, CM or other users?" the person came back with, "They must be spamming all the online users!!! Can you be verified by cam? Skype, Yahoo?"

 

Really?

This is what happens on this site? People come here, try to freak other people out then lure them into cam conversations? What did he/she think I was going to do? Jump up, turn My camera on and prove it? Did they *really* think I'd be compelled to prove *anything* to faceless stranger on a fucking bdsm site? Do people do that?

 

Moron.

 

For some this is a freak show, for others it's a hobby. For a few more it's a lifestyle.

 

Apparently there are those that have no balls. They can't come here, be who they really are and seek what they really want. They're too afraid. They come here and hide behind fake photos and nonsense. It's really very pathetic.

 

And in case you were curious, yes, I am a woman.


9/10/2011 10:27:17 AM

Yes, I want this:

http://shoeshinekit.com/kit1.html


9/9/2011 5:58:56 PM

kevin is away...

We were talking online via cam.

I just allowed him to him touch My cock (trained as he is, he refers to it as Mine as well) while his feet were up on a wall, propping his body up so that when he came it was all over his own face.

When he was done and I told him he could move, he said,

"Ok, hold on, I got it in my eye."

Does it make me awful that it made me smile and laugh when he said that?


8/30/2011 6:19:10 PM

FUCK YOU.


8/27/2011 7:30:54 PM

*I* am going for a jog in the rain, right now.

Tomorrow, I will drink tequila for breakfast while the rain comes down sideways.

I will go outside and take photos when the eye passes over...

 

Perhaps Monday I will go to the beach to photograph the carnage.

 

Cheers!


8/26/2011 9:24:38 PM

Dear Hurricane,

You should show up LATE Saturday night so I have time do get the FUCK outta dodge!

 

Thanks,

Pastry


8/20/2011 6:14:27 PM

Two words:

RON PAUL.


8/19/2011 8:52:59 AM

WANT!!!!!

http://www.kookieintl.com/Merchant5/merchant.mvc?Screen=PROD&Store_Code=KI&Product_Code=3884&Category_Code=GagsBits


8/14/2011 7:00:16 AM

I've been on and off the past two days but unable to check My mail...to busy.

I'll reply soon, I promise.


8/9/2011 8:54:02 AM

Women are not superior to men.

*GASP* Did She just SAY that?

Yes, She did.

Herd mentality. Really? *All* women are better than men simply because they have...what? Vaginas?

Please.

I have met more stupid, shallow, unaware women in My life than I care to talk about.

In fact, most of My friends are men.

*GASP* NO?!

Yes.

I'm not superior to you because I'm female.

I'm superior to you because I'm smarter than you, I'm stronger than you and I know your next move before you do. I can see *all* your cards, honey.

Saying it's because I'm a woman is taking away any compliment, any credit I deserve for being who I am. It's taking away My power and handing it to My gender, which I had nothing do with choosing.

If I was born a man with the same personality, I'd be on this site as a Dominant Male.

 

Don't come to Me groveling saying, "I worship all women" because I find it insulting.

There are women and there are Women.

Know the difference when approaching.


8/8/2011 7:53:32 AM

I cannot *wait* to lock him up for quite some time...I think I've been patient thus far, but My patience is wearing thin.


7/20/2011 7:10:56 AM

I have not been on a lot, as I have been busy.

I have, however, finally set up that P.O. box I'd been mentioning.

Now you can send Me that skirt...or those boots...or that gift card you've been begging Me to let you send.

 

I love it. Good boys.


7/8/2011 7:46:33 AM

kevinbh is My little bitch.

I've got a bit of time off coming up and if we spend it together, I plan on keeping him as My total slave for the duration of My visit.

He'll go off to work during the day and leave Me money so I can enjoy Myself at the spa, or out at lunch or picking up some new toys to poke him with.

While at work, he'll be taking little breaks to make appointments for Me, to call Me to check in and ask for direction, to sit under his desk squeezing My cock until he whimpers (and yes, it is *My* cock, he is well aware of that).

When he gets home, I'll be waiting for him, little pink training collar in hand.

I'll keep him naked for most of the time while he does My laundry, serves Me dinner (while he cooks he'll wear an apron for protective purposes, of course...but *only* an apron), worships My feet and treats Me like the Goddess I am.

I'm molding him into the perfect creature so when the time comes for him to be My true, *total* slave, he's completely subservient, obedient and compliant.

Nothing less will do.

 

 


7/7/2011 7:29:10 AM

Interesting things afoot.


7/5/2011 9:57:46 AM

I am insanely frustrated right now.

Perhaps I should channel this.


7/1/2011 9:33:22 PM

There are a *million* of you and one of Me.

Why should I give *you* a chance?


6/25/2011 11:29:49 AM

"I hope you have it in you."

Don't doubt Me for a second.


6/13/2011 10:36:32 AM

Dear pussies who want to throw their money at me,

Fantastic. I'll take it and make fun of you for doing it.

Love,

~Pastry


6/2/2011 9:19:27 AM

Well I'm not dead, but that sucked. The tornado hit about a mile from me....wrecked a lot. Had to hide in the back room at work for a while as it passed. Trees were sideways, sky was black...not fun.


5/29/2011 6:52:27 PM

Read this recently in a profile(ObeyUandHonorU):

"...atonement through punishment will make me feel more balanced, particularly when you let me know that it is for our mutual benefit rather than a prelude to abandonment."

(italics mine)

I love it. It's perfect.


5/28/2011 11:15:34 AM

Some of the things I see on this site make me insane.

The 20 year old girls who say they're "dominant" or "princesses" who then screech about how their time is worth money and "you better get tributing, bitches"

Really? You're serious? You come here, set up a profile, take some pics of yourself with the camera your parents bought you for college, act a little snotty and think you're *dominant*? Fuck YOU. I could put you on your knees in front of me with one hand. Get over yourselves, you're assholes and half of your pics show you for the desperate coke whores you are.

The people who simply believe they're entitled? That, too, makes me nutty. I get it if you do this professionally, you're filling a role. Understood. But if, in your everyday life you simply think everyone around you should worship you, you're probably an asshole and would perhaps benefit from some introspection.

I see a few profiles here and there saying what I believe dominance is:

It's guidance, it's love, it's discipline...it's caring and helping someone grow and be their best in their service to you, because you *both* want, need and appreciate the dynamic.

I can't imagine being cruel to someone all the time. I can't imagine not loving and caring for those that serve me on a regular basis. That's not to say there isn't discipline, pain, humiliation...

 It just shouldn't be based in fear. If you have to talk down to people all the time, if you walk around telling everyone how much better you are than everyone else, that can be a pretty strong sign of poor self esteem. You're probably afraid of people seeing who you *really* are so you don't let them, you hide behind your "dominant personality" and never get close to anyone.

This is a generalization. Not everyone is like this, I know. I also want to be clear, I'm talking about bdsm relationships...not necessarily play partners or people who scene together.

 

 

 


5/27/2011 11:52:46 AM

My slave, kevin, has done a sub-par job at keeping me informed while he's been away.

I've verbally chastised him recently for his lack of communication. He knows it is something I demand he be better at, yet this last offense (today) was particularly irksome.

he needs to be reprimanded.

I'm soliciting suggestions.

Keep in mind, I want it to happen soon so he will be doing it via web-cam, as I won't be seeing him for a few days.

I'd like to hear from Doms/Dommes and subs/slaves as well...all suggestions are welcome.

How should kevin prove he is sorry for his offense?

If I choose your idea, you'll get to see a description of it in my journal once it occurs and I *might* even give you credit publicly for the idea.


5/25/2011 7:20:30 AM

It has been far, far, FAR too long.

Enough already.


5/18/2011 9:56:37 AM

My birthday was a few days ago.

I received some extremely beautiful gifts from kevinbh, my slave.

I'm very pleased.


5/7/2011 7:37:15 PM

There are times in life when you just have to shut up, put your fucking cards on the table and get shit DONE.

Every day that ticks by is opportunity passing.

Don't be an asshole, asshole.


5/6/2011 11:50:12 AM

My world is getting so very interesting...

It's as if a demon has been awakened from a very long nap.

She is hungry.


5/2/2011 8:09:17 AM

Even while far away, kevinbh is working diligently to please me.

he is contacting people, screening people (he knows what annoys me)....

he is getting used to the idea of submitting via cam while we are apart.

Kneeling in front of the camera so I can inspect him.

Repeating affirmations, learning commands.

Doing whatever it takes to contact me because he needs my guidance, my presence...

It's been entertaining to watch him lose more and more of who he was in order to become more of who I want him to be, who he lives to be.

he exists to serve me, worship me and please me.

Soon, he will set up a bank account for me and I *may* allow him to take over one or two of my bills.

he's learning to be a very obedient slave and his new tasks will be his rewards.

 


4/13/2011 10:25:00 AM

My bitch was here for a few days recently...

I made him take me out to lunch and shopping.

He wore a cage the whole time we were out, to remind him just whose cock it is that he happens to be carrying around...

I also made him wear turquoise fishnets (see the new pic in my pics, very nice) and a cami under his clothing for the whole day.

Every once in a while I'd put my hand in the back of his pants and tug on the fishnets.

 

The next morning I put him in an "America's Next Top Model" outfit and made him "work it" strutting, pouting and posing in my living room and kitchen. He looked ridiculous. What fun!!!!

I then put him on all fours and sodomized him with my new feeldoe.

He was whining a bit about that but *I* enjoyed it, thoroughly.

 

I allowed him to cum that morning, but then made him lick it off his fingers and make faces like a porn star. *That* was highly amusing to me.

We'll be together again this weekend. Some of the time I'll be at work so he'll be at my place cleaning, cooking, organizing, taking care of my bills and preparing for me to arrive.

If he's good, I'll let him service me.

 

xoxo

 

 

 


4/5/2011 7:51:59 PM

Just for the record:

I don't need your money.

I don't need you to take care of me.

I don't give a shit about your cars, your houses, your ability to take vacations and bring my ass with you.

I don't care who you know, I don't care who you *think* you are.

I'm my own person and have been for a VERY LONG TIME and I don't need *you* to do anything for me.

I'm not here out of need. I'm here because I choose to be.

I don't have kevinbh in my life because I *need* him for anything. 
he's in my life because I've chosen to LET him be in my life.

I don't want anything to do with people who have a deficiency for me to correct.

I am not your mother.

Desperation is unattractive.

if I have your submission, it should be because you respect me and I've earned it, not because you're desperate and will throw everything you have at any supposed "strong" woman who will pay attention to you.

 

 

 

 


4/3/2011 11:06:51 AM

On Thursday night, my little bitch, kevinbh, came up to my place and stayed through Saturday.

he cooked for me, cleaned for me...knelt at my feet for a bit.

he went grocery shopping for me, took a list with him...got everything I needed, came back and put it all away while I rested.

he cleaned my whole apartment, organized my boots (many of which were gifts from him), put away the dishes he washed, cleaned the bathroom, swept...

I got him a cute little pink training collar.

he was very thankful to receive it while on his knees in front of me.

I tied him to my bed, face down and caned his ass for a bit while I made him bite down on a huge butt plug. good prep for the soon to be cock-sucking he'll be doing for me.

he got a little mouthy for a bit, so I put the plug back in and hit him again, harder, just to make sure I got my point across.

he's fairly pathetic when he's around me. he wants so badly to please me.

This week I'll be spending a few days at his place. he'll still be going to work one or two days while I'm there...I'll be sending him caged.

he'll be taking me out to a nice restaurant, buying me whatever I want...

we'll then head to a local bar where he'll sit at a table and watch me flirt with other men.

I'm sure he'll buy us drinks, as well.

I'll keep you updated.

~Pastry

 

 

 


3/29/2011 6:56:55 PM

WANT!!!!

 

http://www.mywayzentai.com/Black-Latex-Ashleigh-Hood-p-242.html


3/29/2011 6:53:11 AM

Attention slaves and submissives:

I want to know what *you* think are the most important things you can offer your Goddesses, Owners, Mistresses, Masters and the like.

Again, what are the most important qualities a slave can offer and strive to improve?

Yes, I'm asking for your opinion. Yes, you have permission to answer me, so don't ask.

 

also, buy me these:

http://www.drmartens.com/ProductDetail.asp?PID=13499671


3/27/2011 11:41:30 AM

kevinbh is my pathetic little bitch in training.

he's learning commands, he's learning to do as I say and to do it happily.

he's my personal ATM, my maid, my bartender, my footrest, my pussy and my bitch.

he worships me as his Goddess, his Owner and his Mistress.

Rightfully so, I am all of that to him and much more.

I'm looking for two more, one male & one female to be of service with him.

 

 

 


3/17/2011 4:59:06 PM

Intention, regardless of outcome, is everything.


3/14/2011 4:32:14 PM

What do I enjoy?

Kissing. Biting. Whipping. Hitting. Tying up. Laughing at. Making fun. Servitude. Maid service. Cross dressing (you and yes, occasionally, me). Cooking. Dancing. Laughing. Intensity. Psychological exploration. Your mom. Philosophy. Travel. Ocean. Intelligent discussion. Heated debate. Passionate sex. Fucking. Making love. Eye contact. Pleasure and pain, at the same time. Contradictions. Challenges. Power exchange. Questions.

What do I require in a lover, you ask?

Honesty. Trust. Passion. Lust. Love. Friendship. I want to come home to you and know you love me, want to touch me, kiss me, cook for me and with me, do my laundry and let me use you like a sex doll. I want the best of both worlds. I want the bondage, slavery, worship and control of a bdsm relationship and the love, tenderness and friendship of the typical vanilla relationship. Humor. Joy. Awe.

I want to know that no matter what, you have my back and I have yours. We come first in one another's lives.

I want to walk into a room and *know* you're there before I even see you, simply because I can feel you.

I want to be the only person you love, the only person you feel completely safe and free with.

I want to explore everything with you...good, bad, painful, pleasurable...

I want you to be my best friend, and I yours.

I want to be able to be myself completely without fear of losing you and I want to be able to return that favor.

I want all of this and I will not settle for anything less.

 


3/9/2011 1:42:32 PM

It's true, I do enjoy the control...


2/28/2011 8:17:25 PM

AAAAAAAAAAAHAHAHAHAHAHA! HA!

 

 

http://www.illwillpress.com/ZC22YT.html

 


2/17/2011 5:46:01 PM

AAAAAAAAAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

 

 

http://comixed.memebase.com/2011/02/16/4-koma-comic-strip-one-of-these-kids/#comments


2/7/2011 10:46:00 AM

Introspective today....thinking, too much, as usual.

Yes, I'm a fake.

Clearly.

I'm not a real female because I won't meet you.

I don't have face pictures so I'm not real.

I won't meet you in my hometown, so I'm a liar.
I'm not really interested in "the lifestyle" (a term I abhor, by the way) because I'm not chomping at the bit to beat someone in public or meet you in a hotel.

 

assholes.


Deviance is fine.

Deviance is necessary.

 

How deviant are you if, when you get together, you're all the SAME?


Why are you doing what you're doing? Are you dressing the way you dress because you like it or because it's what people tell you you're supposed to wear when you're into kinky power exchange?

 

Why are you capitalizing Your and You?

 

Herd mentality. It makes me insane. This is making me insane.

 

You know what I never want? I never want to belong to some mindless group.

I'm all about people knowing who they are and what they want.

I'm not about following.

I'm not even about leading, to be honest with you...don't follow me, it simply means you have no idea what you're doing.

 

I observe. I study. I remain silent...not because I'm afraid, but because I'm learning.

I'm watching you. Trying to understand why you do what you do when you do it.

 

 

 

 

 

 


2/7/2011 9:04:54 AM

Pictures are important.

 

If you post them, you should at *least* look at them before you do it.

 

If you're posing on your couch and there's dirty laundry on the floor next to you, you look stupid.

 

You don't look hot when you're taking a pic of yourself in your mirror and I can see the shit scattered all over the room behind you. Trash, McDonald's cups, unmade beds, things on the floor.

 

Tidy up.

 

How can you expect anyone to take you seriously if you look like a total slob?


2/7/2011 8:41:02 AM

I'm really really really really annoyed right now.

Really.


2/6/2011 6:55:14 PM

Also, my apartment is a wreck because I'm so busy all the time....

 

 

Why should I let you tidy it up for me?


2/6/2011 6:49:31 PM

You can buy me this skirt any time you want.

 

http://www.bodylingerie.com/Vinyl-Wrap-Mini-Skirt-P7828.aspx


1/28/2011 10:13:35 AM

Need vs. want.

If I decide to keep someone in my life, whether it be friend, lover or anything else,

it's because I *want* them in my life. ..not because I need them.

 

I don't *need* anyone.

 

If I give you my time it's because you've struck a chord.

You've shown me something I would have otherwise not seen...

You've changed the way I think, perhaps.

 

I have very little time.

 

It is precious to me beyond words.

 

I will not waste it, nor will I allow it to be wasted by others.

 

Should you feel special if I *do* keep you around?

 

Probably, but why should you believe that unless you're one of the few I keep around?

 

Doesn't really matter then, does it?

 

 


1/25/2011 9:14:18 PM

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z_trSIBCgF0&feature=channel

 

 

AAAAAAAAAHAHAHAHA

 

Yes, I'm 32 and this still makes me giggle.

 

Screw you if you think that sucks. I could probably take you, so watch it.


1/25/2011 8:55:46 AM

Oh. My. God.

 

I love this.

 

http://www.stockroom.com/Blackened-Blue-Devil-Raffia-Mask-P2035.aspx


1/15/2011 7:09:36 AM

This made me laugh, out loud, a lot.

 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TugslL45aXk


1/5/2011 8:15:45 AM

"When the rich wage war, it's the poor who die."

 

 

Indeed.


1/1/2011 6:55:07 PM

 

 

This year I will:

Jump out of a plane, maybe more than once.

Lose another 20-25 lbs and be in the best shape of my life, ever.

Run. A lot...enough to be able to call myself a runner and *mean* it.

Let go of you, completely.

Live near the ocean.

Shoot guns. A lot and well.

Be in love.

Primal scream while running through the snow drenched woods of NH.

Bake. A lot.

Get rid of at *least* 50% of what I own.

Be more honest. Kind, but honest.

Sit by a fireplace and drink hot chocolate...making the illusion mine.

Tell anyone who will listen that this isn't how it has to be, I swear to you, we can be happy and at peace.

Stop when I'm feeling angry, short tempered or upset and change my attitude.

Learn how to fight.

Let myself be loved.

Speak Russian.

Dirtbike.

Get a passport and travel.

Laugh.

Tell people how much they mean to me, even if it makes them uncomfortable.

Wear skirts and boots.

Photograph *everything* in Holyoke.

Break into buildings.

Hug strangers.

Live.


12/18/2010 3:43:56 PM

The C/capitalization thing is A/annoying to me.

 

Yes, we get it...you're dominant.

 

So dominant that you have to capitalize "my" and "mine" and various other pronouns referring to You.

 

Really?

 

You know, I try not to judge...

 

but I just find it childish.


12/13/2010 11:00:12 AM
*This* is going to be fun.

12/10/2010 6:35:36 PM

http://www.mydivascloset.com/4chprmajashw.html

 

http://www.mydivascloset.com/4gamoshfor4.html

 

I would skin kittens for these shoes.

 

Skin. Kittens.


12/8/2010 8:43:14 PM

Ever realize just how awesome life is?

Even if only for a brief moment....

 

I'm aware. :)


12/6/2010 5:06:59 PM

Thinking rationally about emotional things can be extremely painful.

 

That which does not kill you makes you stronger.


12/5/2010 5:11:54 PM

Dear dominant men,

 

I'm not a sub.

 

No, really, I'm not kidding.

 

Unless you just want to talk as equals (which we are, don't be fooled), stop trying.

 

It's annoying.

 

Love,

Pastry


11/28/2010 5:09:38 PM

This, too, shall pass.


9/17/2010 8:36:51 PM
My neighbors fight a lot. They yell at one another. She cries all the time. Why, for the love of god, would you stay in a situation that makes you miserable? WHY? You. Are. Going. To. DIE. Someday. You have a FINITE amount of time here. WHY would you spend it MISERABLE? FUCK THAT. I've said it before and I'll say it again... I would rather spend my entire life ALONE than with someone who doesn't make me happy, treats me like hell or doesn't appreciate me. I'd rather spend my life alone than with someone I don't respect or that I can't learn from. People pair off because they think that's what they're supposed to do, then they stay that way even if they're not happy. FUCK YOU. I want *bliss* I want *passion* I want JOY. Someone recently told me I have commitment issues. You know what? I do. I will not commit to anyone unless I think it's worth it. Give and take. I have a lot to give, but if I think it's going to be all *give* I'll walk, thanks. If I think I'm going to lose myself in the process of committing to someone/thing then forget it, I'm all set. It's about *growth* together not restraint. Not hindering one another but supporting one another...helping, nurturing. I know very few couples that I can look at and say, "Wow, they really love one another and have each other's backs." Never settle. Ever.

9/11/2010 7:45:24 AM
"Life is too short to wake up with regrets. So love the people who treat you right. Believe everything happens for a reason. If you get a second chance, grab it with both hands. If it changes your life, let it. Kiss slowly. Forgive quickly." Amen, sister.

8/27/2010 6:28:30 AM
You know... You never know. Understand?

7/27/2010 6:42:02 AM
Dear Pastry, That was a close one. Cut the shit. Love, The Universe.

7/21/2010 6:24:25 AM
I'm on vacation. All correspondence will be shelved until I return. Unless you're special (which you're not) Love, Bitch

6/29/2010 9:16:04 AM
It was supposed to get easier this month. It did not. If anything, it's way more difficult. Dear Universe, You are an asshole. Love, Me

6/25/2010 10:02:06 PM
I *am* so freaking queer. Yes, I just took a quiz to find out what drug I'd be, if I were a drug. My results: Acid. You are Acid. Definitely very conventional and very predictable- you probably own a minivan and beige slacks. Just playing, you weren't expecting that now, were you? Or maybe you were... you never know with someone like you. You're vibrant, creative and well, insane. Your perception of reality differs from everyone else. Your relationship with the world is very love/hate. Not everyone understands you, which isn't surprising because you don't even always understand yourself. But there are times were you've figured out the universe. Temperamental? Yes. Bizarre? Unquestionably. But very, very intriguing.

6/24/2010 7:04:15 AM
Yay! THUNDERSTORMS!!!!

6/21/2010 9:33:20 AM
You just left your doctor's office... He missed something in your blood work at your last appointment. He called you in to tell you you've got a rare, incurable disease. You have six months to live. I want to know what you'd do with those six months. Yes, you.

6/20/2010 7:22:22 PM
You know... I come across as all fierce and feisty...and I am. I'm strong minded, strong willed, and try to be unafraid and all that... but I'm still fucking human and sometimes it's just not easy. I've chosen the path I'm on. I didn't choose some of the awful things going on around me, but I choose to deal with them on my own, solitary. I choose to not have someone to come home to. I choose to not have someone in my life that I can lean on if and when I need to. I do not regret that choice. I do not look back and wish I hadn't left. The occasional twinge of pain I feel, the occasion tears I shed are worth the freedom, joy and awe. I just need to remind myself once in a while.

6/17/2010 8:02:46 PM
I want: to kayak in the ocean at least twice a week. to learn how to shoot guns. to hunt. to surf. to run a marathon. to move to the beach. to walk away from what I don't love in order to embrace that which I do. to be in the best shape of my life. to learn how to fight. to improve my photography skills. to jump out of a plane. to take risks. to make out with a hot woman. to wear more vinyl. to have a garden. to sing karaoke in a dive bar. to drive off a cliff, at the age of 83 in a rented convertible...bottle of tequila in one hand and a pistol in the other. to live without fear. to die without regret.

6/16/2010 5:39:29 PM
This is crazy. Can I do it? Survey says: FUCK YES.

6/9/2010 12:19:05 AM
Slaves. Slaves to your own minds. The ideas you've created, fed and made bigger...ideas in your head that control your life while you blame outside circumstance. It's YOU. The bad attitude, the addictive behavior that keeps you a slave to whatever it is that you spend all your money on, keeping you where you are. It's YOU. The regret for years lost doing things you never wanted to do but you just keep doing them anyway because it's easier than changing. It's YOU. Sitting in a corner wallowing in your own self pity, never even trying to change your mind, never trying to control the thoughts in your head that control your life. It's YOU. Getting drunk or high instead of facing the sorrow, rage and despair in your heart. It's YOU. It's you, not your parents, not society, not anything else....at some point you have to realize, it's YOU. Situations are sometimes handed to you when you do not ask for them. You are the one who decides how you deal with them. YOU. You can change everything about your miserable life RIGHT NOW, but you choose not to. It's YOU. How do I know? Because it used to be me. I used to be afraid. I used to blame everyone around me. I used to spend my money on bullshit every friday to mask my unhappiness. I used to beat myself up for not doing things I thought I should have done. I used to blame my mother for hurting me as a child and "making me this way as an adult" and it was true, the way I was raised screwed me up....just like 98% of the population. But you know what? The second you realize you're screwed up, you also are handed the power to FIX whatever the problem is. It requires WORK. It requires INTROSPECTION. It requires CHANGE. It requires ACCEPTING RESPONSIBILITY for YOUR CHOICES thus far. YOU chose to blow all the money you earned. YOU chose to get high and drunk, and in turn become reliant on those feelings. YOU chose to feel bad for yourself. Sometimes it is difficult to not make those choices. This doesn't change the fact that you DID it, and you need to ACCEPT that you did it. Then you can change. OR You can choose not to. Either way, YOU choose.

6/8/2010 11:57:51 PM
It's three in the morning and the birds are chirping outside. Does that mean it's time for bed? But they're so sweet, I want to stay up and listen to them.

6/8/2010 11:00:28 AM
Before you send me an email, I beg you... Read the whole profile. See that I'm not a sub. See that I'm not looking for any sort of commitment. I'm here to exchange ideas. Maybe phone numbers once in a while. If you understand that, we're good. Know that I cannot be contained and that my using those words isn't me just trying to test those who would call themselves dominant. It's fact. I will not be contained by you or anyone else. Does that mean I want to contain you? No, because I despise pussies. Know that this isn't real life for me. This is fun, kinky sex and mind play in the bedroom. Nothing more. I've stated this before, I'm restating it here. "Switch" implies duality. It's also being used, in my case, for the bedroom only. I'm not looking for someone to push around, nor for someone to be pushed around by. My life is *my* life, as yours is yours. I'm writing this because I get emails from dominant men all the time. If you want to chat, great. If you want to own me, keep moving.

6/7/2010 8:33:39 AM
Where does it stop? Who throws a wrench into the cycle, stands up and says, "FUCK YOU, MOTHERFUCKERS! THERE IS NOTHING TO WORK TOWARD BECAUSE IN THE END YOU DIE. I WILL NOT BUST MY ASS TO PAY FOR ACCUMULATED SHIT THAT WILL BE TOSSED INTO A LANDFILL AFTER MY WASTED LIFE IS OVER. I WILL SEE YOUR ILLUSION FOR WHAT IT IS AND LIVE MY LIFE, NOT FROM FEAR BUT FROM BLISS. I WILL FOLLOW MY JOY UNTO THE ENDS OF THE EARTH AND NEVER REGRET IT, JERKOFFS!" I say it. Right now. My *heart* is what I follow... not you, not your idea about what I should be, not society's idea of what I should be. I go after what *I* want, not what I've been taught I should value, not what other people think I should chase. Bliss.

6/5/2010 7:19:19 PM
Every human thought and action is based in either fear or love... I've said it here before, I know. How much of what you do stems from fear? How would your life change if you weren't so afraid?

6/4/2010 10:33:01 AM
A guy just came to work on my sink. He had to go in the cabinet under it. What did he find? My new bottle of "Toy Cleaner" Oh yes. That was fun.

6/3/2010 8:44:38 PM
I will tell you one thing up front, I will always do my best to level with you. I will always do my best to be sincere. What you do with that is your choice.

5/2/2010 4:01:01 PM
It's starting to get hot out. I love sex in hot weather... I love being all hot and sweaty and sticky and rubbing up against someone...getting hotter and sweatier... Dear God, May I please have some free time? I'd *really* like to have hot, sweaty sex... Thanks, Me

4/30/2010 12:21:45 PM
"I'm shiny and I know it, don't know why you wanna blow it...need a man who likes it rough, likes it rough, likes it rough..."

4/27/2010 11:30:48 AM
Alright. I've officially moved. I will have no internet for a few days, possibly a week. Boo-fucking-hoo. See you soon, Me

4/14/2010 7:47:47 PM
What the fuck are YOU looking at? (let the witty replies fly)

4/8/2010 10:28:36 AM
Life is totally and completely fucking weird. I don't mind, but sometimes I swear to you, I throw my hands in the air and say, "What the fuck?" out loud, even when there's no one around to hear me. This isn't a bad thing. It's a good thing. I like the challenge, I like the thought process... Bring it.

4/2/2010 9:20:04 PM
You know what I want right now? I want really good, decadent, rich food... good wine, good music... Rooms dimly lit by candles, open windows, fresh air....a feast for the senses. I want to feel tension. I want to be looked at, into. I want to have slow, hot, passionate sex until I'm so exhausted I can't move... then I want to fall asleep wrapped in blankets while the cool night air surrounds me. If I could have anything right now, this is what I'd have...

2/20/2010 7:44:10 AM
Every human thought and action is based in either fear or love.

2/7/2010 7:55:15 AM
My best friend wrote the following about me. I think it's fantastic and accurate.(I changed my name here because I don't want you to know it. Smootch!): "...I was inspired to do this by my friend Ellie. If 'contradiction' defines me, then 'destruction' is the most succinct summary of Ellie. She has the uncanny ability to hold one in a proverbial headlock while forcing him to identify and justify every ounce of what he does or loves. Nothing is so enlightening as transcendental bullying. When apart, she is an anxious collection of broken ideas and I am obsessed with my scant objects of indecision. Together, we are quite a force to reckon with, however; she cuts the thread of ideas for me to weigh." It's true. You're going to die someday. If you died, right now, what would you regret? Why aren't you changing it?

2/5/2010 9:49:07 PM
This is *so* weird.

1/7/2010 3:07:30 PM
Hey assholes,

Yeah, you know who I'm talking to.

"Oh, don't they have lights in Springfield?"

"Why are your pictures so dark, what are you hiding?"

"Nice dark pictures, you must be a MAN!"

"Why don't you show us your face, it's easy to talk like you talk when you're afraid to show yourself."

Uh...no, assholes....try again.

I'm not afraid, I'm cautious.

I'm protective of the investments I've made in real life, as I SHOULD be.

I work for a living. Full time, with the public.

I've worked very, very hard to get where I am and I'm not losing it for a kinky sex site.

I have a father who loves me and a little sister who looks up to me.

I have coworkers and customers who would LOVE to have juicy gossip on me.

Yes, I should post pictures of my face and all my tattoos so I can easily be recognized by all the people who DON'T need to know I'm here.

How fantastic it would be for my little sister to know I like to be tied up, or do some tying myself. Yep, that wouldn't be scarring for life.

Really? Maybe you don't have a normal life to protect, but I sure as hell do.

If you have a problem with my pictures and it makes you feel better to send me hate mail about them, be my guest. It only shows how ignorant you are of other people's "lifestyles"

Assholes.

1/3/2010 6:13:27 PM
You know...

I get email from guys all the time....guys with profiles that say they're "looking for *the one* who wants to be owned"

Why would you write to me?

I'm not trying to be an asshole (though, there are a few people who visit my profile that will immediately fire off an email to me telling me that's exactly what I'm being)....

but, seriously, if you actually read anything I've written here, you'd know you're wasting your time writing to me.

I can't be owned. It's not even remotely close to in my nature.

I'm my own strength, I don't need or want yours unless we're equals.

Also, I'm not *searching* for anything, either.
I've met some cool people, some not so cool people...but really, this is fun for me, not completely serious. I'm not searching for "the one".

I doubt such a "one" exists for me.

I've also been told I "can't forget about *the lifestyle* because it's in me now" or whatever.

Really? You know me that well, do you?

This isn't a lifestyle for me. It's sex. It's psychological. It's fun. It's interesting. It's powerful.
 
It's *not* how I define myself, not at all, not even a bit.

Exploring the concepts is something I enjoy, but when it boils down to it, for me, it's just fun power-play sex.

I know some people are very, very serious about BDSM and that's fine for them, but don't assume we're all the same here, because we're not and there's nothing wrong with that.




12/26/2009 9:41:22 PM
Busy.

Wicked. Fucking. Busy.

My life is a whirlwind of no sleep, tons of work and people pulling me in all directions.

Soon I will be able to let go.

12/9/2009 5:46:42 PM

I've been single for six months now....


My god, I am *so* ready to have crazy sex, I can't even begin to tell you...


11/30/2009 4:57:32 PM
1. I don't respond to chat requests on this site because when I do, my computer folds up into a little box, runs to the nearest corner in my office and spits at me from said corner for *at least* an hour.

2. I'm nobody's slave. You want a woman to kneel next to you because she *knows that's her place*? Keep looking, the only reason I'm kneeling by your side is to see if you're still conscious after I deck you in the teeth.

3. I don't want to Dominate you in the bedroom all the time every time. If I'm dominating you constantly and that's what you *want*, that means you're getting what YOU want....which also means *you're* in control, because I'm filling the role you want me to fill.

4. I'm very very busy. Way more than you can understand. If I don't respond to you, it's because I'm BUSY. I don't talk to my own FRIENDS more than once a month lately, but here, let me drop everything and talk to you.

Uh, no.

Does this make me an asshole?
Maybe.
I try to be nice to most of the people I end up talking to, but if I don't show up on YOUR fucking schedule and you give me shit about it, you can bite me. Who the FUCK are YOU?

That was my rant.

11/8/2009 8:50:01 PM

Hey kids. I'm not looking for anything right now. Too much on my plate. Maybe next year.

Leave a message at the beep.


9/17/2009 5:52:42 PM
I want...

a lot of things, actually and it tends to change everyday.

Right now I want red wine and slow, hot, wet sex.

9/14/2009 9:56:11 PM

Ha.



Oh, some of the shit people say to me on this site is *hysterically funny*


I won't post it here, because I'm not that asshole, but...wow.


Really?


Do these lines actually *work* on people?


9/13/2009 10:20:20 AM
It all just keeps getting stranger and stranger, doesn't it?


The contents of the envelope are not determined until you open said envelope.


Do you understand?

I don't think you do.

9/12/2009 9:56:45 PM

For some reason, people are interested in my thoughts. This didn't strike me as that kind of site, but I'm actually pleasantly surprised that it is.

What do I think? How crazy am I?

Illusions by Richard Bach...

Read it.

If you even remotely understand it, if it even minutely resonates, you will have a small glimpse of what I believe...and you will think I'm insane...and I won't care.


9/10/2009 12:56:38 PM
Ever have one of those days when you just want to be slammed against a wall and fucked like whore?

yeah, me too.




9/9/2009 8:05:24 PM

I don't get angry often.

I don't let people affect me, they're really not worth it.

You have to really do something awful to seriously piss me off.

Currently, I am violent.

I want to destroy something.

I still may, the night is young.

I post this here because some people are turned on by this.

Come here so I can kick your fucking ass.


9/4/2009 9:23:27 PM
Oh.

My.

God.

9/3/2009 2:23:28 PM
I don't want to mislead...it's not in my nature.

I get a lot of email from a lot of interesting people on this site.

I've been talking to a few people regularly and having great discussions, but I feel like I need to remove some illusions.

I've been told things like, "You sound very intelligent, articulate, cultured, etc."

Ok. Maybe I am.

I can be articulate. I can be eloquent.

I do love philosophical discussion.

I come across, specifically here, as one type of person...when in real life, 90% of the time, I am more than likely *nothing* like I seem to you.

I have 9 tattoos. Soon to be 11.

I curse like a trucker. I'm not kidding.

I say dude.

I'm pro gun.

I cannot be contained.

I'm just as likely to tell you to go fuck yourself in public as I am to engage you in "intellectual discourse" if I think you only want to engage in said discourse to jack yourself off.

I have a low tolerance for bullshit.
When I said I tell it like it is, I wasn't kidding.
On the flip side, I can be quite shy and sensitive...but don't count on it often.

I'm very passionate about life, love, god, politics, sex, food and music.

I have my own opinions which usually offend most and I don't care.

I'm logical but I'm also spiritual.

What I believe about life, why we're here and how we got here would seem *ridiculous* to most of the people who've continued conversations with me on this site.

I'm very comfortable with who I am.

You might not be if you really knew me.

I'm ok with that.

Why am I putting this out here?

Because, again, I don't want to mislead.

These discussions are fun and I want to continue them...politics, sex, religion, etc.

Though we're all just words on a screen, I like to level with people.

I suppose what I'm trying to say is this:

A lot of the people writing to me claim to be refined, sophisticated men with a kinky/deviant side.

I'm more of a deviant/punk chick who happens to have an intelligent/cultured side. I'm the exact *opposite* and I thought I should make the statement.

Consider yourselves warned. ;)
 








8/30/2009 1:51:17 PM

I'm wicked busy.

When I'm wicked busy, I tend to think.

Here's what I'm thinking about (and stopping to write about, oddly enough):

Submission. Dominance.

I listed myself as "switch"

Why?

Because I don't have a preference...I can't pick one over the other because it's not about being only one of them, it's about the power struggle.

The challenge.

This site is interesting to me because it almost takes the fun out of all of it....

If I haven't met you and I already know what you're about, it removes the guessing...the mystery...the taking the situation by the balls and approaching someone you know absolutely *nothing* about.

To me, that's a huge part of it.

It's two people having the balls to confront and challenge one another. 

If you can hold my gaze, it tells me you're as strong as I am, at least mentally.

It means you can hold your own.

It doesn't mean, however, that you are the dominant one. It simply means that you accept my challenge.

Part of the fun lies in discovering who is stronger in what area.

It's about exploring one another's limits...and I'm not even really talking about physical pain...I'm talking about ego, sensuality and eroticism.

That's what makes this fun for me...exploring limits, going past them, either as a dominant or a submissive...whatever I am inclined to be at any given time depending on the circumstances.

Both roles are fun at different times, don't get me wrong.

I'm just saying that in the end, what I'm about is people who can capture my attention and intrigue me in real life, not just play a part.



8/28/2009 9:48:32 PM
aaaaahahahahaaaaaaa.... and to think I was raised catholic! Who knew, under all of that guilt and fear, I would end up like this? and by "this" I mean unashamed, unafraid and ready to dance on the edge.

8/23/2009 2:41:48 PM
For the love of christ, people... I'm in this for fun. I don't want to be your "pet" or your "slave" Is that offensive to you? Good. You don't own me. Nobody does. It's about mutual satisfaction as far as I'm concerned. Is *that* offensive to you? Good. Eat me.

8/21/2009 5:44:53 PM
Sex. It's pretty much all I think about lately. When I say all I think about, I mean I'm constantly distracted by it. I should probably see a shrink. There must be medication for someone like me. No?

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 Age: 20
 Anchorage, Alaska