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	Hello, My name is Nicole. I'm 19 and I'm just now starting to realize that I have no idea what I want. I am extremly dominant in most aspects of my life. My career is mine. Plain and simple. I am a major power house that will not let you put me down or try to intimedate me. I will personally make myself better than you and more needed just to show you up for trying to put me down. I'm always trying to build myself up by going to school even though I'm liscened to do something that I can make much more money by the time I'm 30 than most people do when they're 50 as long as I play my cards right. I dictate most relationships with my friends, co-workers, and even some of my family members, but I can't do that with sex and intimate relationships because then they don't mean anything anymore. Because then they're just another part of my need to be in control and in a since "the man" of my life. That doesn't mean I think men are better than women I'm just using a society reference. And if I have to be the man in that part of my life as well than I'll never be able to enjoy it. I'm guess I'm putting this on here to let everyone who I guess has been interested in me before know that I'm a mess in organized fashion. I guess I'm seeking a person who will let me stay the man in my career and school and friend/family relationships except when I'm with them. Who when I'm with them will let me shed off the theoretical "pants in the family" and hand them over to them. So I can for once in my life feel controlled and submissive and know that it's completly okay because I'm with them.

8/29/2011 11:18:15 PM

I've always dreamed of being a writer. I know I have a lot to say and tons of experience to share but I've always doubted my ability to put it on paper. Fear hinders me from doing a lot in my life. But, I started writing last night and I now have the first rough draft chapter of my book.