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I am a working female from delhi, India....interested in bdsm and submission.

been into this for around two years now. Primarily into a bdsm relation with a great man(ie my master), and here for talking and exchanging ideas only. You're welcome to come and talk, but only if you are interesting and have outstanding ideas to humiliate me (which would then of course be carried out by master.Though i'll be sure to tell you how it went.)


About me: My professional life demands an inhuman number of hours every week, and i have no semblance of stability in that aspect. But then that is, part of the fun.I have been a sub for over an year now and have loved a major chunk of it.Admittedly, things haven't always been great, but you can only grow when you learn to get over differences, and can successfully take in a different opinions and respect them.

As some important person said: The essence of the independent mind lies not in what it thinks, but in how it thinks

My main interests are being in pain and being humiliated, however such is the nature of these things. :-)

I have gathered a fair amount of experience in being a sub, but am still hungry for more.

PS: I am owned, and i do not intend to desert my master. Additional:- If you're messaging without reading the profile, I'll block you without a warning.

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1/17/2018 4:28:38 AM
Time to stop my journey is here. It has been a great learning experience but i'm no longer physically able to continue this taxing lifestyle.
As such, i'm going to let this account go into limbo.
It was nice knowing all of you and exchanging ideas with you guys/gals.
Adios.

10/25/2017 7:54:09 AM
I've just read this and i think that is very very beautifully put together and everyone should appreciate it.


The Disparity of Humiliation

Humiliation is a statement about how willing I am to debase myself for him. It’s about the contrast with who I otherwise am. I don’t get wet when he calls me a worthless cumslut because I believe I am lacking value, I get wet when he calls me a worthless cumslut because he’s pointing out to me how low I am willing to go for him. He knows I’m an accomplished woman, worthy of being treasured, and that it’s only for him that I will lower myself to ‘’worthless’’ cumslut in order to please.

When drool drips down my chin, when I spread my ass open to his gaze, and when I perform acts for him I can barely speak, they are statements about the lengths I will go to for his pleasure. These moments recognize the disparity between the me that belongs to the rest of the world, and the me that belongs to him


9/29/2017 10:02:25 AM
How can you say no to someone who says things like this? "Are you one of those disgusting, depraved, and demented next level self hating humiliation junkie whores who is constantly searching for a way to truly demoralize, debase, and dehumanize themselves? A rancid, wretched, and worthless pathetic excuse for a cunt whose only pleasure in life comes from being exposed to all the horrors this world has to offer. Do you spend your nights and days offering yourself up to every perverted and perverse big bad mean man you can find hoping that he will be the one to do something truly horrific and horrible to you that will shatter what will self esteem and self respect you might have left within you? Is it your ?happy? thought to one day not even be able to look at yourself in the mirror because your own reflection is so ugly, repellent, and repulsive that the sight of it makes you sick to your stomach? If any of those apply to you then this is for you."

8/14/2017 12:56:14 PM

So, hi again. Well isn't this awkward. I'd hoped to leave this life behind after marriage but sadly my marriage is what got left behind. Anyways, that being the nature of such things let's continue with our usual series of recollections from the days gone by.My marriage, was a disaster for me and for them. it ended in april when the papers were finally filed. At the time i was at peak levels of desperation from the lack of regular supply of cock. Two of you did help out and i'm really thankful to you both, but that too was a one time thing. Thus i turned to using the reliable services of firms providing help to desperate women like myself. From there i met the man who finally managed to get me back to controllable levels of lust.(Henceforth referred to as the guy.)One day while we were doing it he noticed my engagment ring and gave me a questioning glance. I shot back asking him if it turned him on knowing that i have a husband? The man who was on the verge of exhaustion revived like a phoenix! Later on one day while the divorce proceedings were on, he called up my now ex-husband telling him of my current situation and then said "This is your husband, he wants to say something to you!" I replied back with "us namard se bol pehle ladki thokna seekhle(Translation: first ask him to learn how to properly fuck a woman!)"
I then proceeded to ask my guy to cum on my mangalsutra and i'll lick it all off for him(forcing my hubby to hear all this on the phone in real time.)
On another occasion, the guy randomly said "Smile you cunt, your husband will be watching this later"....he said this while recording the moneyshot on his phone.
The day i was finally free of my ex, i asked the guy to fuck me into a senseless doll...accepting the challenge he did his best and when i was beginning to get tired he spat on my face and pulled my hair, then with a roaring voice he said" get your fucking head up. You wanted me to do this to you, I can feel your cunt getting more wet right now.Now look at the fucking camera, all my friends are watching"


Seeing how i was excited at this provocation he invited me to join the pleasure provider girls group(PPGG) however he warned me that giving an interview to being a ppg will be by my holes and mouth being impaled on the biggest pulsating pole that they could find at the time. Eventually my examiner was significantly larger than the guy who introduced me, but i passed the entrance test. ;)
One time I refused to provide the lewd girlfriend experience to a filthy man who consequently reprimanded our "leader" thus when i came back to report, i was slapped by the ppg group leader(a woman):-Your attitude will be adjusted little girl. You’re a whore now. The attitude adjustment comprised of electric shocks from a car battery along with the usual beatings and whippings and being a stress relief toy for anyone(boy or girl) for a week.
After the week ended, she again came to me and said Cock grants us relevance. Thank every last one of them that drains their balls into your insignificant, expendable holes. Know your place next time. (i left it as soon as the month ended and refused to take up my share...which helped ease my exit)


7/15/2017 10:32:21 AM

She spent 20 years of her life wanting to be come a doctor, and instead finds that the best way she can help these people is as a clean, uninfected fuckdoll when they need one :)


9/20/2016 1:05:13 PM


DETOUR! I WAS TO DIVULGE MY FUN WITH MASTER & Co., but i'd rather tell you a sob story. I know i'll be getting a lot of hate for this, but this needs to be said and i don't care how many people are rubbed the wrong way. This story is about my A-holed Ex-bf. You see, lets start off with the routine story. He was a co-worker from another department(He's a surgeon, in hindsight that was the first red flag, surgeons are control freaks), we met and had casual chats, he was sweet, charming and i was honestly attracted to him. i fell for him and i fell for him hard!, without any real person to talk to in the new city, i started spending more n more time with him, so much so that i (and he) started practically living at each others places. All was well, until one fine day, something at work happened and his attitude took a 180degree turn. Next day i was at his place(i had stayed the night) i got up to take milk from the doodhwala(milkman) and he came up behind me, started shouting at him, accusing him of diluting the milk and selling more water than milk. to be supportive i too was standing there to support my bf,my hands on my waist. suddenly my dear asshole bf pulls my nighty down, pinches my left nipple and says "is gai main se isse behtar aata hai" (this cow referring to me, gives better milk than your actual cows)..daba ke dekh le khud(press them and see for yourself) with a cunning grin over his face.

Later that day, when i confronted him about it at the hospital, he said, SHUT UP!. i was so surprised that i actually shut up about it, as i was walking out from the operation theatre changing room, i heard him chuckle and say:- these bitches should be reminded what they are, and all his friends joined in the chuckle. At night, he came by my place which at the time i'd thought that he was here to apologise, but it was the first time i was hate fucked (at the end of the fuck, he took off his cum and unloaded it all on my hair...knowing very well that i hate it going into my hair.) what i thought was a bad day, was merely the beginning of a brutal traumatising relationship for the next six months. It got so bad that he'd happily say this over the phone to his buddies : "Sometimes just listening to the bitch plead and beg is more enjoyable than raping her…..especially if she thinks she has a chance to convince you…."


He'd make me wear a semi transparent top without a bra, and while i'm wearing it he'd slap my tits and make me say "my titties aren't good enough". two months in and i was practically his free slut slave. Once guys get it in their heads that a girl is a slut…. she’s a slut. And they will treat her accordingly. That’s why he made sure to tell all the guys that his girlfriend was a slut as he set me up with a gang fuck.

he'd call up his friends and say: "I am going to beat this bitch. She just looks like she could use a beating. Then I’m going to rape her, give her to the buds, and when they’re bored with her she’ll be sold to a brothel. It's the least she can do for me". When i confronted him about it, he simply shrugs his shoulders and says "I can’t stand having sex with happy women...do you want me around or not?"

During our last days together, he used to micromanage my life, send instructions via phone, what to do, what to wear, where to go and then he'd insist i follow it exactly as he wanted. Then he'd ask the driver to confirm on the phone whether i was complying with his orders or not...the poor driver was ashamed about it too, but the job was his only way to sustain the family. Oh, and did i mention that my bf used to ask me to bathe in front of his driver and rub my cunt for him the entire time i'm in the car?

So, overall i was sooo terrified that i actually fled from this place to my younger sister's place for a couple of weeks. I simply couldn't take it anymore. I come back, and the next day he comes home....beats me to a pulp, fucks me, rips my clothes and leaves the door wide open as he leaves, so that my neighbours can see me bleeding and cum leaking from my holes.

Oh and should i ever rebel against him, he took enough videos and photos of our intimate times to last him a lifetime, so i was in a really tough spot. I was terrified to even step out of my house and i didn't particularly feel safe inside it either. I moved to the hospital hostel for a couple of months, just so i could sleep in peace...in the feeling that not just anyone could waltz into my room.

When i got back, i switched places. I even wanted to get away from it all...luckily it was around this time that i met master, and somehow in all this turmoil, he still managed to make me feel safe, secure and most importantly cared for. In all that noise, he managed to provide me the silence, the calmness i'd lost by being with that douche of bf. Perhaps that's why i do far worse things that these, things that any sane person wouldn't and still i feel happy, satisfied, safe. I guess this is why i trust him.


9/20/2016 11:23:50 AM

Now it's time isn't it? Had your breakfast yet? for me, even this question is a troubling one as i'm eternally detabing whether I do breakfast now or after he mounts me with his penis and fills my wet holes with his seed. Hopefully you have a better time figuring things out.If master's in a playful mood, he proceeds to bend me over and fingers my ass for a couple of minutes before entering it. One fine morning while buried deep there, he said: I ass fuck you rough and hard for two reasons: it feels good sacrificing your tight little hole for nothing but my thick cock’s pleasure.And then there’s the even better part – seeing you make those stupid facial expressions. You can’t tell if you want to smile widely at what I’m doing to you and how good it feels to be fucked into a little ass whore – or if you want to gasp in pain and shock. I hope you feel fucking humiliated you stupid fucking cunt. That’s half the fun of tearing your formerly tight little butt apart. On other days, when he's in a pleasant mood, he goes to town fucking my cunt and leaving me high and dry as soon as he's done.And when i raise any objection, i'm picked up and tossed across into any nearby wall. then he'll walk over and slap me with his slipper in an admonishing manner.

When it's time to finally have a bath, master might let me enjoy the warm soapy bubbly water bath, or he may simply ask me to take a bath in the backyard, out in the open...where anyone could just jump/peep over a wall and enjoy the show. on days when i'm allowed a bubble bath, i'm expected to keep the door wide open and any man in the house (not just master) can come and do whatever he pleases(there are mostly more than one when i'm allowed tobathe inside the house)... when master usually comes in, he simply asks me to generously soap over my butt to gather lather which he meticulously canes off my ass with a stick.
i move out of the shower and suddenly someone would snatch the only towel you're using to cover yourself up...when you use your hands to do the covering up, they simply laugh at your face and beratingly remind you that they've done far worse than simply seeing me naked.i make myself presentable and that includes waterproof eyeliner because i still need to be presentable to the outside world. (however it looks worse once you've sucked and cried while sucking two cocks)..oh did i tell you that i now have a poster of my face on my bedroom wall, and master has written "mouths don't get pregnant" with my favourite hooker red lipstick...managed to clean that minutes before my mother dropped at my place!! Whew.

Oh as for developments with master, master was miffed that i didn't explain/take permission from him before going to my rokna, and to an extent his position was understandable. But once i explained my situation he understood and happily agreed to move things onto the next level. :) YAAY! So now i get to have unlimited fun with him, his friends, and their friends.

JUICIER DETAILS TO FOLLOW SOON. ;) 



4/12/2016 2:48:03 AM

It's been rather long right? I've been silent for far too long, but i've had quite pertinent reasons to stay silent till now. However, that limitation is no longer valid as I've figured out the perpetrator who's been forcing my hand for so long. So long story short, I'll again be pretty active here. :D

Now recounting my experiences august onwards, master and i started exploring other avenues for kinky fun because the routine ones weren't nearly satisfying enough. So we ended up hooking with a Dom/ Domme couple who had once earlier been in contact with master. The status quo agreed was thus:- Man of the house> Woman of the house> Me. As for the induction, i simply couldn't go ahead and please him, an "audition" of sorts was held while i was down on his jock and she cooly sipped lemon tea while analysing and criticising my posture. On another occasion, while i was busy servicing Him, she came behind me and fish hooked my mouth edging him to go deeper and rough up my throat even more than it already was.
Even when she lets me suck you her husbands dick, she makes sure youi know it’s ONLY at her discretion. She is fully in control of my relationship with him and at any second she is going to toss me back in a cage and fuck him while I cry.
One day the hubby was in a sadistic mood and tied me to the table leg, then wifey held one of my legsup for him to freely whip my tender inner thighs and cunt.
Another day i was alone with the husband and he let itslip that he and his wife have been trying for a child since way back but because of her they couldn't actually conceive a child. When i offered he was so happy and when he told his wifey, she crushed my masturbating fingers with her high heeled sandals and obnoxiuos weight resulting in fracture of my second and third fingers on my left hand. Have never gone back to them since.

Then after recuperating, i went back to master's service and was supremely happy.
There we decided that before the third year rings in and I'm married to someone, we'd try evrything under the sun....so of late we've tried to break new territories and explore every taboo out there before my impending marriage. So we've upped the game and involving ourselves in far riskier stuff, but the adrenaline rush has never been higher. I'll soon update this with new year's celebrations and this years fun. Stay hungry, Stay kinky. ;)


1/30/2016 9:38:02 AM
Just read this and am copy pasting this for others like myself out there. WHY EVERY FEMALE SHOULD LEARN TO BE A GOOD I COCKSUCKER. OK, I’ve been asked about this question recently so here are some of my random thoughts on the issue. I’ll start by listing some of the main reasons why it’s a good thing for us girls to suck men’s cocks and then talk about attitudes, actions and stuff like that. Reason number 1 – this should ALWAYS be top of a girl’s list of reasons for doing anything – the man enjoys it when you suck his cock! You are giving him pleasure which is what you’re SUPPOSED to be doing when you’re being fucked or otherwise sexually active with him! So let’s list the many reasons why a girl should dedicate her time to sucking his cock. 1 The man enjoys it! 2 Keeps his cock hard! 3 Reduces the risk of colon cancer 4 Reduces the risk of erectile dysfunction and premature ejaculation 5 Remind you he’s always the boss 6 Slightly degrading which makes you remember to show proper humility 7 More likely to make him stay with you 8 Sperm is high in protein! 9 Reduces wrinkles - sucking cock is the best form of facial exercise there is and will reduce wrinkles and keep your jaw from sagging 10 Good for your teeth – sucking his cock stimulates saliva which fights germs, prevents bad breath, fights tooth decay and gum disease 11 Reduces stress – semen contains cortisol, a hormone that is known to reduce stress 12 Prevents insomnia – sperm contains the natural soporific agent melatonin which will help you sleep easily! 13 Makes you feel good and happy – spunk has two chemicals, estrone and oxytocin, that are known to make your mood more cheerful. It also contains thyrotropin which is a natural anti-depressant. 14 Reduces the risk of breast cancer – the glycoprotein and selenium in spunk will reduce the risk of breast cancer. 15 No pregnancies – of course you can’t get pregnant from sucking cock! (Though the decision on pregnancy/contraception/abortion should always be the man’s decision. As I put it in a slogan about a year or so ago, ‘her body, his choice!’I’m sure there are lots of other good reasons why us girls should always be keen and enthusiastic cocksuckers but those will do for starters! Now let’s talk about attitudes towards cocksucking. Too many girls seem to think it’s THEIR choice whether or not to suck cock and whether or not to spit or swallow. WRONG – it’s always the MAN’S choice what he gets to put inside your mouth! (Just as it’s his choice what he does with any other part of your body!) So a girl should approach cocksucking as her duty and as something that’s pleasurable for the man and helps to keep her properly humble. When a man’s thrusting inside your mouth and filling it with his seed agirl should be grateful, humble and totally submissive to his demands. She should recognise that having his prick inside her mouth is an honour and being allowed to taste his spunk is a huge honour. So how to go about it? Here are a few suggestions. 1 Get on your knees while you’re sucking his cock. It’s uncomfortable for you but very pleasurable for him which is all that matters. A lot of men like to use your back as a footrest while you’re sucking their cock which also adds to the element of humiliation that reinforces the humility us girls OUGHT to feel in the situation. 2 Remember the whole business is all about HIM and about HIS pleasure. Let HIM control the pace and always be in charge. If he wants to fuck your mouth gently let him; if he wants to fuck it hard, banging your face and mouth against his cock, using your ears or hair as handholds, that’s fine. It’s HIS choice how he decides he wants to fuck your mouth – NOT yours! 3 Don’t even THINK about spitting out his cum. He’s doing you an HONOUR by cumming inside your mouth and spitting it out is being rude, disrespectful and rejecting him which is just not on under any circumstances. Let HIM decide what he wants to do with his spunk. 4 If he wants to cum on your face, let him. That’s degrading for a girl and the humiliation of it is pleasurable for him. 5 If he wants you to swallow his spunk, let him. It’s always HIS decision and never yours! 6 Don’t forget to kiss his balls as part of the process. 7 When he’s finished clean his cock and balls with your tongue and mouth. Make sure you get every last bit of spunk off his prick. Remember at all times that HE is in control and when you suck his cock you are making a conscious and open sign of your submission to his superior male equipment. And never forget – there are only a few purposes for which a female’s mouth is intended. Number one is sucking a man’s cock and that is more important than ANY of the other things our mouths do!

8/21/2015 5:12:02 AM
The scary thing about a roller-coaster isn?t the dizzying speed, the sudden turns, or even the steep drops. It?s knowing you?ve said ?yes? to something you can?t stop.Scream, cry, beg, pray? it doesn?t matter. No one will hear you, or care if they do. Hell, they?ll probably laugh. You made your choice; even if it feels as if every part of you is tearing itself away from every other part in an effort to escape, you?re there until the ride is over. I had been pestering master for something mind blowing since aeons, so he said ok (after informing me time and time again that there will be no backsies)but didn't tell me what or when we will move onto the next stage. Master left for an overseas trip with his son for 3 weeks followed by a business meeting and ax expo somewhere in china. So before leaving he loaned me to Mr E (the crazy bugger who was screwing me while his wife was pregnant). He kept me in his other house(somewhere in the outskirts of another suburb od Delhi) for a while and then asked me to take a flight to his original/ancestral house in indore.There i met three more gentlemen. I'm calling them U1, U2 and U3...btw, i've forgotten's U3's real name already. Before the flight wrote anal whore on my butts(helped willingly by Mr E), and taking a flight with the words on my butt the entire time. It just felt so naughty. i would've creamed instantly had anyone said those words during my flight. Once there, E escorted me to U1's house rather than his own, and left soon after. I(U1) paid for your flight out here just like I offered to E. Now if you want to have a flight back, you?re going spend this whole vacation pleasing me and my friends.(E apprised me of the whole thing before moving on, but carefully omitted the monetary aspects of the dealings.) ?Let?s get these out where we can work with them.?-- soon after i was introduced, while he started undressing me standing beind me and pulling my tits out..rather harshly.On cringing with pain he claimed:- ?You think your tits hurt *now*? In an hour or two, you?ll get how funny that is.?-- later i understood what he meant, with my tits tied and bulging further with every passing minute.Onto mauling and squashing my swollen tits and then adding nipple clamps.Finally, after removing the clamps he again slaps my breasts and pinches my nipples and says :- ?Would you say they?re both equally sore?? One of the reasons whores have tits is so that men have something to punish them with. I'm just making sure yours aren't wasted. Leashing my neck with his belt, and yanking it hard enough to injure my neck. And later he says "An injured neck is a great teaching tool"yeah right!! try giving a blowjob with a normal neck let alone an injured one..but i wasn't entitled to such rights and was to tend to my "nautanki" (dramas/acting out) on my own free time. (There was no officially decided free time.) I dozed off after an intense session, and being woken up by a sensual touch down there. i was happy feeling those soft warm cuddly touches, however when i woke up i found it was another unknown man (U2) feeling my pussy. I wanna be manhandled, tied up and held up against my will-- yes i said these precise words to U1 and U2 after a blowjob. He pinched my lips, me kissing his fingers afterwards..that felt nice.lovetaps from your god feel so good on your face, don't they?-- while slapping my face with his beast. My mouth?s highest purpose is helping any man to relax and forget all his worries. One day when i had completely undressed, he came close to me cupped my face in his hands gently and slapped me so hard that i simply fell over onto the sofa. "You made a choice, whore. I am the consequence.Next time undress quicker." Smiling uncontrollably upon seeing his(U1) dick for the first time. Please slide it in slowly? my largest yet isn?t even half your girth(he was a genuine 8-9 incher with a larger than normal girth.)I said that with a prettiest coy smile i could do, trying to hide my own fears beneath the fske smile. U1 talking to my master, and says:- I provide everything for her. A room to live in, her food, and she still can?t stop crying and screaming when I ask her to pay for it. Ungrateful bitch. master says, she'll also do anal, if you push firmly enough i could hear that, he said it in his rasping arousing voice. U1 raised an eyebrow questioning me, and i just smiled coyly. "When a woman says she?ll do anal, men will instantly lose interest in her pussy." U2 says immediately:- Dry fuck that bandariya gaand(monkey ass).Don?t waste lube on her.The pain will show her how worthless she is.Always try to leave your kutiya (bitch) with tears on it?s face! When i was being drilled by U1, Mr U2 comments:- "That is a very FULL ass. Look how spread apart her ass-cheeks are to accommodate his very wide cock. She?s going to be feeling that good hard fuck for days. " After the act he said:- "when you wake tomorrow and your asshole is burning it will remind you of who is in charge and not to hide anything from me" Then he trailed off with, don't worry...it's a learning process. Later on, i heard U1 preaching to U2:-"Fucking a bitch's anus is a very specific form of debasement. In bypassing her pussy, you are reinforcing that she is merely a set of holes for your use, and that you will choose the tightest, as it will feel the best for you. It brutally informs them that she is simply a masturbation device." Over that two week period some more wisdom words during my tenure as "haramzaadi chut"(It means bastard cunt) 1)To celebrate our hostile takeover of her senses, we decided to give her a feel of how things would be like once we had fully and completely moved back to delhi. 2)This is why you live in your own house without neighbors--they said that they knew that girls like me "have to live alone". 3)Which is drooling more slut, your cunt or your mouth? Does having your ass so full make your other holes jealous? 4)drop down like a good girl and i'll fuck you like a bad one. He said this one after whipping my ass to the point where it was bleeding and had a fair number of marks over it.And on top of that he wanted me to sit down on the rough rug carpet and grind my ass into it while sucking him off. I refused,was whipped 10 more times on the same spot. Pushed to sit down and grind..but instead of cock, he gave me a soap bar to place in mouth and to suck it for half an hour.(later he told me that had i refused this too, he would be "forced" to use sand paper on my bottom to make it smooth....that man was a psycho with a big huge penis.) What I can?t believe I was sucking his cock a few minutes after meeting him. People(U2,U3) were looking. I need cock now more than dignity.I'm ashamed and proud of it at the same time. One day he said I?m picking you up for lunch. you'll get yours from me on the way ;) alli got was a rubber capped blowjob, cum and a lot of slaps for giving too much teeth. (in my defense, it was abumpy ride in a not so comfortable car...sucking is hard, and even harder with a bruised neck and moving vehicle thrown into the mix)pulling the condom off his dick with my mouth and licking the insides clean. At times being whipped so hard, first in restraints and then without them, so that i could squirm and whelp in pain for his enjoyment..to the point where i wasnt even able to put words together to tell him how i felt. tieing me up in a kneeling down position and placing a laptop on my rear end.Laptops are terribly hot, specially if someone puts it on your bare bum skin One day i ws terribly tired and refused. he only said: no more excuses.It's time for you to FUCKING BREED. You're going to take my cum forcing your belly(actually belly not the uterus because he came inside my rear end continuously..twice atleast) to swell. Stuffing a small corn cob up my rear end so that i don't get too casual with my duties. Chewing gum for two hours daily to build stamina to suck cock for hours on end. Putting a 10 rupee note in my mouth while I'm giving a blowjob. "He uses my Pooh Bear toy to wipe himself clean when he?s finished. I've to lick the toy clean daily" That lovely moment while you?re getting dressed for the first public outing in weeks and he decides there?s something you need to do first. Impromptu service is always such a joy. At the said event, U1 says to U2 "Like special snowflakes, every woman is different. When you violate one in public, it?s fun learning what kind of unique reaction you?ll get." Enema me up, then ask me to piss and shit in the same bucket daily for a week. A foot on my head, a cock up my ass. Now I'm being a real woman and I couldn?t be happier. when he wakes up horny in the middle of the night, and comes over..starts humping you banging my head into the headboard repeatedly...when i complain...he does it for another round and again bangs me again..says "learning process" Being asked to make U2 cum without using my hands or genitals...oil his johnny, n my tits. give him a tit job between his abdomen and my tits...damn loser came in a few seconds. I love it when men treat me like the fuck meat that I am, holding me down and hate fucking me, using me for their sexual gratification without giving a thought to my pleasure. I crave being used as an object. the only time he fucked me in the pussy he said:- ?Look at me. I want you to be able to tell your rape baby everything about his Daddy.? I tried not to spoil his fun but i was laughinginside. Sensing that he pulled my hair and said "Look into the camera.Your master paid me for this, I?m sure he wants to see the dumb look on your face." NOTICE:- I fucking hate Viagra....its the worst products for bruised females:specially in the company of young horny males with a higher than normal libido By the end of the month i was so deperate for an actual normal orgasm that i actually said "Doesn?t someone want to make a naughty girl like me airtight?" In front of 4 people that i've just met a couple of weeks back. "Let me give you the math little girl. There are 4 of us and only 1 of you. And your Master gave you to us until he returns. So, struggle all you want, it?s not going to do you ANY good and it only gets us more turned on." And NO, they didn't touch my pussy. :( later he made me beg him to fuck my cunt. He finally accepted, and then when the time came, he shoved it into my anus...smiling lewdly he said: "I just wanted to remind her how much I care about what you have to say." At one point of time it was too much to handle, and i tried slipping out for sometime. I was caught, and he said:- thought you could get away? thought you could out run us? we would have gone nicer on you if you had just accepted our invitation but no, you thought you had a choice. lol Finally, for the closing thoughts for the past month:- 1) USB fans are terrible. As a woman you should avoid them at all costs. 2) You need to be creative to make the best of your situation. 3)As a man, your motto should be:- "in sluts, we thrust" Also, I now own a pearl choker :D Money, education, fancy clothes and expensive jewelry don?t change a thing. In the end, where I am in life doesn?t matter, as a woman, this is still where I will end up, what a man will want from me. My status and its trappings won?t be irrelevant though. They will be fetishised. They will make his conquest sweeter. The fact of your education, intelligence, wealth, will add spice to his using you as a toy for his cock. This has been my roller coaster ride for the period of july to first week of august.

7/4/2015 10:25:47 AM
Well this year is certainly a bummer!! Apologies. But i completed my post graduation, so YAY ME!! My present status:- jobless, mindless, 24x7 cum hole for master and his band of merry men(and this includes two people younger than myself, still legal though){Job hunting is crazy, people want you to lick their boots in return for a stupid job} As for the updates that really matter here:) :- 1)As a punishment Iwas to message master while sucking E's cock, that was a selfie I suppose but one taken from the rear camera instead of the front one(yes, i had to go back to that crazy bugger, for he ratted me out to master, but as compensation for me...he only gets into me with a rubber now. ;) knowing him, it is a relief that i'm safe now :D) 2) I recently came to know that i had a queer habit of tilting my head backwards whenever someone probed me anally, strangely enough it was the younger kid who discovered it first...during my first sexathon with master and co after my illness and exams, he observed that i did it and said it loudly infront of E, D and C. So E decides that the biggest must enter to maintain validity of the test, while C, and D hold half my locks each and pull simultaneously, so that when E enters me, and if i tilt my head back...the hair should stretch enough to make me scream in agony. Meanwhile, since i was preoccupied, the kid(he's no kid but lets name him kid...K1) decides to turn into a stupid cameraman and films the entire proceeding....obviously i lost, and with that i lost the bet too and now have rather short, unsightly hair, though still grabable but i still feel that they look weird on me. Compensating for the loss of my hair, i'm specially jealous of women with longer hair and spend a lot of time doing them up...and at the next ?event? K1 says ?The more time it looks like the slut spent on her hair, the harder I pull it when I?m fucking her.? 3)Ah yes, i just remembered...i am ordered to say this loudly to anyone reading my journal:- ?I USED TO LOVE BEING A PARTY GIRL-- BUT BEING A PARTY FAVOUR IS EVEN BETTER? 4) Master has to make a trip to japan later this year, so he's picking up a few things from close associates who've been there. So when someone told him about eating a sushi with chopsticks, he brought home a few to practice. The practice however wasn't on picking sushi, but on trying to pick up my clitoris with chopsticks. He said:- ?This is how you should practice picking up sushi. ?It?s better to mess up and use too much force on a fuckpig?s worthless twat than ruin a piece of sushi, after all.? 5) I now have a small jar/bottle of a mixture of cum, piss, sweat, and saliva. I'm supposed to gargle that thing everyday, and redeposit the mix back into the bottle for a week. It's day 3 today and it's yuck as hell. 6)As for tradition,I have a few of C's quips:- a. My favorite part of a porch monkey: their inevitably huge tits. You can slap ?em and play with ?em all you want, and they love it. b. i want you to be famous baby, i wish that you're so well known amongst a certain group of men that it?s not unusual for you to get a knock on your door late at night and all he has to say is??Hey bitch?.I figured you were in the mood for some.? c. The way he threatens to send a pic to your father when you're down on your knees sucking his cock with the caption??such a good little cocksucker??.and then he whispers that very thing in your ear as you are swallowing his cum. 7) They piss on you, your hair, tits, face and then master coolly forbids taking a bath for 3 days, that too in peak summer season. 8) They no longer need to know my name. ?I?m just the whore, the cunt, the slut, the cum dump, the dirty girl. I love they way they use me again and again and leave me a nasty quivering well-fucked pussy. 9) On a side note, to celebrate my completion of my work here, my father visited me at my house for a few days.Whats more interesting is that for those very days, master took leave and used to call me daily.I love how rough my Masters treat his fucking slut. ?It doesn?t mater what?s happening at home, day or night, they call and I find a reason to leave my father and go and get fucked like the whore I am. ?They practically rape my cunt, my ass, fuck my mouth, slap me, cover me in cum and use me until they are through with their cum-dump. ? Then I stagger home to papa, my body oozing cum, with some lame excuse as to why I?ve been gone so long. ? I confronted master regarding this, and he said He couldn't decide what he liked more: Inflicting pain on my delicate body, destroying my soft cunt, breaking my spirit or just the pleasure of fucking me against his will practically in front of my father. Possibly it?s the shame they both feel when her own father gets watching his daughter's plight, and the daughter's inability to stop it from recurring. Advice corner:- Here is something amazing i just experienced first hand. D was pinching and twisting my clit as he fucks my pussy bareback. Yes, I was in terrible pain. Yet, he?s forcing me to beg ?please rape me, hurt me, use me, breed me.? I was broken and crying as I repeated what he told me to say. Master was watching, and he had a hardon, perhaps one of the best ones i've seen till date.

3/25/2015 3:36:48 AM

 Sorry for the protracted silence on these journal entries. As some of you are aware it is because of hate mail that I was receiving after every update, but that's not the only reason. This year has been a rocky one for me till now, and hence I thought of this blog as being pointless.... That was my main reason of stopping... But since my libido is back to normal, I'll try to at least provide some updates on a not so regular basis(Shout out to everyone who's sent me appreciative messages urging me to continue...you guys are awesome. :D).

So starting from December, when things started going downhill.... First I flunked an important test at my work place.. That was bad professionally, but it was something that could be rectified in 6 months time. So I wasn't that perturbed by it, just a bit dismayed.

I was pinning my hopes on January for good times(master was free from mid Jan to first week of Feb), but save the first couple of days, I got to spend very little time with Master. Master's friend (Mr X- a depressed, narcissistic person with a failed health and business... It was his business that truly mattered to master.)met with an accident in Jan. So initially we spent some time there. Then master requested me to be X's caretaker/ live-in nurse/ life guru/ aphrodisiac.... There I wiled away my time from January to mid Feb. (admittedly it was fun and we tried out a lot of sexual stuff, but it wasn't as fulfilling without the humiliation I've come to adore so much.)

So in the third week of February I finally got some time for myself and it was then I realised that I was craving for more sex.... So me, master, Mr c,d,e were all participants to a gala event at a pretty non deion hotel room ;)

But that's when phase two of my trouble started. It was at that event, Mr E infected me with chlamydia. The crazy bugger must've got it from the other whores he's banging since his own wife is pregnant for the fourth time! So that prematurelypaused mydays of fun. :( so with a painful bottom( pain, vaginitis, vaginal discharge etc), a sore mouth ( you see, he's happy to fuck all holes) and fever... I'm confined to the bed for two weeks. As a precaution I abstained from sexual activity for an additional one week till follow up cultures turned negative.

So as payback, I went bitch mode on him!! (Add as evil grin as possible :p) I dropped at his house unannounced and informed him in front of his wife that he has chlamydia infection on his penis.... He just kept staring with his mouth agape... That was ecstatic. Yay!!! But since I didn't want to trouble his wife, I told her about an imaginary health camp at her husband's office where we collected urine samples for checkup.... The innocent woman immediately accepted it.... God, will I too be that dumb after marriage?

And finally I'm back to being free and acting on my partially nympho, partially masochistic tendencies.

[Note:- My father called twice during this time period and asked about my health and how I ended up with throat infection etc (usually I'm pretty strict about what goes into my mouth;), or so my father believes) I just diverted the topic... Obviously I couldn't tell him that it was because I had an older, stupid married man's cock down my gullet which led to this infection]


1/31/2015 12:33:54 PM
It doesn?t matter how successful and respected a woman I am in public. The only thing that makes me different from any common street whore who lets a man use her body is how expensive the lipstick is that will be coloring your cock.

1/29/2015 2:20:16 AM

Two days after my exams were over, i asked master to plan something, "Let’s have a little fun. It’s Fuck Day."Those were your words, not mine, slut. Is this what you meant when you seductively asked for “a little fun?” Did you picture my hand clasped around your throat slightly constricting your air supply? Did you imagine my cock throttling your insides with an intensity you’ve never had with another? Did you fantasize about the bruises that will mar your perfect skin tomorrow?I didn’t think so…

You may have sauntered into this room looking like a pristine socialite calling the shots but I promise you WILL wobble out like every other sloppy disgraced whore I’ve fucked. Perhaps next time you will think twice before asking for “a little fun.”

When things finally settled on fuck day, he closed with this:-Not sure why, but owning your fucking face while you wear your pajama bottoms really turns me on.Of course when I’m done with your throat, I’m going to spin you around, yank your bottoms down to your knees and ruin your other two fucking slut holes.

Later on, master lightly caned my breast and came all over them, the salty cum stinging on the bruises and it was a sweet mix of pain and pleasure. Then quite uncharacteristically he said, No washing off my cum before you leave! i thought it was strange, but i complied anyway.Next day, at work i receive a text that read: I love the hair cane marks and cum stained tits, do your co-workers know about them? *evil grin*, later that day while cleaning cum off myself, C who had dropped in a few minutes earlier said: "You’ve done so much with your life."


Usually master and i prefer to keep details of my actual life between us only, so When guys ask what I studied in at college I respond, “Getting my pussy pounded.”

Also, recently had the biggest one anally yet(lets name him Mr E) observing my plight my tormentor just said this:- Things will go a lot easier for you if you just relax and breathe through it. Honestly they will. But, either way, I’m cumming in your asshole tonight. And your crying and gasping just makes me harder. Earlier that evening he said this "If you want lubrication before I fuck your arse, I’ll just use your mouth and cunt first, slut."

These are mine, whore. Don’t forget it. (while mauling and coarsely groping my tits over my black top).


I was sucking off master, and usually i keep family insults out of the realm of our talks, but he was so turned on that he said: There’s enough inches left for your sister to lick. Call her in. [At that moment i glared like a tigress at him(and he did apologize immediately) but at the back of my mind, i think it might be fun to try out(Ah, stupid unrealistic fantasies, i know).] After my fuck session, master told me this: "I’ve had a lot of bitchy, girlfriends and subs in the past. But my mates say my current sub is a keeper."



At one point of time I was tied up so long that I wet myself, master said that it is definitely hot but master laughing at me and making me take my wet knickers in my mouth while he fucked me afterwards was even hotter.

Some wise cracks i've heard:-
1) Ram your dick in hard and deep. Make sure she knows the difference between having sex and getting fucked.

2) We don’t care if you “consented,” you fucking pig. You’re fucking property.(this is good as a play line, but if you think that this is a blanket consent for anything and everything then you need a mental checkup)


I intended to write about events in January, but now i'll have to post them separately.


1/11/2015 2:38:54 AM
Just read it, and to be honest... It doesn't hit far from home right about now. So here it goes:- There was once a brain-dead whore; Horny and needy for cocks to adore; She thought she was empowered; Then her soul had been devoured; And now she just begs them for more.

1/3/2015 6:23:40 AM
To attention of all:( I never do this stuff but I'm sure you'd chuckle too) This user :- Venkat4054 just sent me this message, please go through. well Happy new year...just want to share a work plan given to my girl...just check if helpful to u ...u can try..but sure u cant...since ur not trained for such...well try Juice-preserved pussy juice ...2 spons sugar...a cup of milk..an egg...brush the teeth and spit all with water in that..take 2 badam, 2 cashew...keep all this in mixer ....apply mixer for 5 mins...then take it in a big glass...fill class by pissing...its ur juice... Food- pedigree inside pussy for 15 mins and serve in floor... works / tasks---tough situps u did on other day equal to ur moms age....now it should be ur dads age... after that...washing clothes used....tie a soap to apply the clothes to ur nip ,next tie a brush to ur clit,another nip tied to ur water jug..clip pussy lips each 3 and tie related leg to that clips.....now wash clothes.. after washing...fuck asshole with ur high heel sandal 100 times..shock womb 100 times continuous...now collect manufacture juice... now we need more juice ...so use sandal to fuck cunt 100 times fast ...dont stop till 1000...now again collect juice... in home i want u to shit and piss when ever it is needed clean only in morning... boob roti has to be made 20 times each..pussy roti 20.. asshole shocks with gaslight 100 ...collect juice again... i need one glass full ...atleast try more than half glass sleep naked on floor...tie ur clit rope tightly to the bed leg by being on all four...now u sleep...even u want to lay down u cant move it with hand...it wil pull and come to low level automatically....tie ur both nips to ur tongue clip making them pull up ...u can sleep now...early morning shit and piss has to be done at same position and then release clit and move... I said that this is not doable according to me, at least not in 24 earth hours. Please tell me in what world is this doable????

12/31/2014 4:09:59 AM
The kutiya is in a fuck marathon right now, anyone with kinky ideas for pain and humiliation is welcome to contribute ideas-- With love Mr B

12/13/2014 3:24:16 AM

Apologies for not updating for so long, as most of my frequent correspondents would know, i was awfully busy in my exams, which just ended on first December. So without much further ramblings, lets begin.

Just after i had my first skinny dipping after the exams, i asked master if we had reached a saturation point, master replied "No, my dear.Watching you squirm on my cock is so fucking sexy, my provocative little fuck puppet. But soon the squirming will have to stop because shit is going to get real serious. Real fast. I have big plans for you and this is only the beginning. The way my penis feels right now is going to be a massage compared to the battering you will recieve before we are done.I would make you wallow in regret. I will make you rue the day you came to me to truly pursue this fantasy. I shall drag you through depths of agony your mind cannot begin to process.All the while, I will be reminding you that you asked for this, even Begged."

It felt so strange...another man undressing me from behind as master watches from the front.One of master's friends (Mr A) is a jovial fellow, and jokingly asked if master has a small dick(apparently this was his first time in a cluster fuck fest) because my pussy feels tight. I politely replied that it was due to regular keigels, but at that very moment i could clearly sense that he's no longer going to be invited again :D I stupidly smiled at this conjecture, and paid a heavy price later on.(adult diapers for three days).

Two other gentlemen(B and C), while busy working on me casually told MrA: "I usually fuck her as hard as I want. Slapp, choke or just toss around. Who cares if she can’t take it. It pleases me. Stupid cunt won’t even be able to tell anyone. Also, i'm fairly certain that she kind of digs it. "
Mr C chimes in, "Cunts aren’t complicated. Fuck her hard enough, and she’ll always come crawling back to you. She will endure any amount of abuse, manipulation and humiliation, as long as you know how to smash it."

One strange "contest" was for me to apply lipstick and give a BJ to all 4 participants, making sure to leave the maximum amounts of color on their willies.... the one with the most color, gets to pick their spot. ;)

While playing, i had a sort of semi-breakdown, and stupidly asked master, Don't you love me....in an instant, he nonchalantly replied back..."Love? I never said anything about love, you pathetic cunt." [PS:- he did make up for it later;) ]

Also, I had an awkward phone conversation with my mother while I was struggling to catch my breath, had panties stuffed in my cunt and struggling to keep Mr B quiet while I talked with my mom.


10/26/2014 1:49:52 PM
I recently had two days off with master. I was happy, and hopeful that something interesting would happen. On the first day, around 12, master asked me to accompany him to a friends place, this friend is one that had mistreated me earlier, and so for the past year we havent visited him even once. When we got to his place, i asked "why here? and master said:- 1) Because i say so 2)because if you didnt enjoy it you wouldn't be with me. (though master did promise that he had a lengthy discussion with this friend, and he had promised to behave himself this time around.)
Once inside, and somewhat introduced with another new gentleman, this friend started exploring my breasts, when i resisted, master said: Don’t take it personally when they fight back. Sometimes they feel ashamed of the things they let you do to them, but for good whores, the resistance always passes.Although i felt ashamed at myself, but it was like master had echoed my very innermost thought, and that brought a wry smile to my face(Yes i realize that i'm a gone case by now).
The friend, after the first round of fun and frolicking, said this:- You’re a mess that can never be cleaned up. 
When master and I got some alone kinky time, he thought this [and later even told me about it;-)].Degrading and breaking me is fun, but he still loves to see me like this… Gentle, careful, loving… it reminds him that I'm still so much younger than him, still just an impressionable little girl. Watching me like this, somehow innocent and naive in my degradation, remembering that I'm still somebodies daughter - still somebodies innocent, perfect little princess.And yet at the same time, here I am… worshipping his cock, Degrading myself for his pleasure.
During the two days there were multiple instances where i was eagerly licking the cum off the floor like a starving cat licking milk from the ground.Even worse was when they came on the mirror and asked me to lick it clean while berating myself while looking in the mirror.That was truly humiliating, also the jibes, sneers and comments from time to time made it truly disturbing for me.

I'm perfectly fine with you GENTLY putting it in and out of my shit pipe, but it you think about running a battering ram there with your penis, then we have a problem!! Also it should be amply clear that it is a rather sensitive region and I will certainly try to get away from it, and if you try to restrain me, then it will be ugly.
After the shit pipe incident, I was handcuffed, and the old coot tried to get in again, this time without any lubrication.Naturally i moved away, but to my surprise he didn't shout, he didn't show anger....he just calmly said:- Sure, you can run…but I’d stay put if you ever want me to give you the key.(I did come back,sat on his lap, but i guided his penis into my V rather than my A)
Why is it that every non related male expects to convert me into something akin to a mindless sex toy? This time I remember his exact words: Yes you filthy cunt, it is possible to be brain dead and still alive. You’re about to find out exactly what that feels like and then we’ll really get to work on your fuck holes. “Randi-Choot” is not just a name you stupid whore, it is literally what we will mold you into.(For those that are inept in hindi, Randi- Choot = Fuck-meat)

On the second day, "the friend" said that he and i would go to a movie. later that evening he said:- When I told you I’d take you to the movies tonight, this is what I meant, whore.(he said this while clicking a picture of my mouth on his willy, for "reference purposes")[In hindsight, i may have made the biggest error in judgement back then]Master too took a few pics and a couple of vidz, but master is trustable, so no worries there(Actually i did use master's pics to my advantage also, but that is boring and without any actual merits per say, so i'll leave them out.)

Over the couple of days, i was owned, degraded, used and abused...but i admit that i've never been happier. ;)

Pearls of Wisdom That the asshole friend gave to my dear Master(the nerve of that guy!if he wasn't a friend of master's i would have probably reported him for sexual harassment or worse):-
1)If you enjoy breaking and mindfucking your slut, use the “she’s perfect”. Let her catch you browsing pictures of young, beautiful sluts with hard-to-get bodies. Better yet, browse them together, comment on flat tummies, firm asses and bouncy tits. Then kiss your partner and say “but I love you just like yuo are” and “you have other qualities that I appreciate”. Just break her slowly, one piece at a time. Corner her, leave her with no saying and nowhere to go. Then she will be yours. Entirely.
2)After ending the day's proceedings, the second gentleman said something on these lines: Break her, shut her off, fuck her holes til she is free … free from all inhibition, from all the shame and restrains … she is just a cock crazed animal, a desperate fuckpig eager to please and to serve. The only way she can be useful is to serve with her body, her 3 holes… a pathetic worthless fucktoy, taken and used like a rapedoll, like a filthy cockslut
4) Once she stops seeing herself as a person, the possibilities are endless.
5) it's all a game of making the cunt hate herself more than you do!
6)Make the cunt feel inadequate. Judge her body and punish the parts that are not to your standard. Make her apologize for having tiny tits while you punish her, then make her punish them herself to make her feel shame. Keep her striving to be better and keep her feeling as if she will never be good enough. Keep her feeling like the only thing she is good for is pleasing you.

So much for this long due, and extended journal entry.
Bye Bye. :)

9/6/2014 7:56:45 AM
Boring weekend ahead. :(. I'm home the entire weekend but He is busy. :((
Any suggestions to spend time?


8/30/2014 9:17:41 AM
So i was kind of busy with the finalization of my thesis, and run errands for my guide at the hospital, so this got much delayed. Anyways, better late than never. So here it goes... the past month, in retrospect of course. :)

Well the first week was boring, everything was dull and plain jane. Towards the end of first week and the beginning of second, I was "loaned off" yet again to a friend for a couple of days. As usual, I hated that vile human being, and this very specific hatred is what encourages master to send me to him time and again. (Master terms it "Behaviour restructuring")

By now i'm fairly acquainted with this person's (Lets call him D) MO. 
1) As soon as you reach his place, he'll ask the servant to leave for the day and in the meanwhile offer me something to drink....usually lemonade(D hates Cold drinks, and considers them a western conspiracy :P). Once the coast is clear he wants me to initiate the sexual congress, but either asking outright or by subtle actions. :)
2) D is well aware that I despise even his touch, yet he acts indifferent. So getting on with it, he was pretty soon fucking me, and then he slowly said "Every time you swear its the last time. And here you are again, full of my cock"...that stung like a harpoon, and i hoped that this ordeal would end soon.
3) Soon after, the reason I was loaned out was apparent, he wanted to show me off to his Haryanvi friends that he too could obtain and keep a nice piece of fuckmeat at his place.It was epic when one of them asked as to why he needed one, when he was already married to a nice looking female? His reply was "my wife doesn’t let me do this. This slut doesn’t have a choice"...he said this while he ejaculated on my face!
4) Moving on, from my face to my neck D nibbled a bit and quickly shifted to my breast.. He ordered me to pierce my nipples with thumb tacks...admittedly...they weren't the sharpest, but i reckon that my job would have been easier if they were.(I did pierce them, and they did bleed...but it wasn't as painful as it looks, Master wasn't happy about me piercing myself for another man's whims)
5) Needless to say, I was again made presentable and novel ways of torture and fucking were devised for me. The harvanyi friends all enjoyed watching, but enjoyed the action even more.

Before departing for the night, one of them said-- " Is jaisi ek humko bhi kharidwa de, mujhe bhi aisi hi chinal chahiye" Trust me, i have rarely been this happy before, specially in D's house. To be honest, it wasn't as bad as I had hoped to be. :-)
PS:- what does a chinal mean?...i assume it is a derogatory word for a female with loose morals/ easy to fuck kind of women. If it means something else, then please do enlighten me. Seriously do tell me!

Master came for me the next morning, and then what followed was a long long love making session with master.
As for erotic adventures with master, i'll update them shortly here....this post has already become too long to remain interesting.

Ciao


7/23/2014 11:03:22 AM
Master binds me to a  chair that is on a table top and poised right on the edge.  I know that should i fall tied like this that, there is no way i could protect myself.  So i sit there, perfectly motionless, hour after hour in constant fear till master returns and finds another use for me. (he didn't actually leave me alone, he just went into another room and ignored my muffled cries from the cramps). Finally returned after more than an a couple of hours at least (not sure about this though).

Then using babcock's forceps and strings, he pulled on my nipples, skin of the axilla, and tongue. (these he tied to the fan a little tightly so that it ensured a fair amount of pull at all 3 places).
Then master considered for sometime, and i thought that i was going to be left high and dry, but master finally decided to bring out the riding crop and used it generously on my privates, while gently caressing my breast. As soon as I was about to come, master suddenly increased the intensity of the whip, and instead of ecstasy, i felt a tide of pain writhing my body in the most contorted positions, but to no avail.
Then finally the moment i was waiting for came. Finally master allowed me to touch him, to feel his bulge and to breathe it in.
When we finally fucked, it was surreal. I suddenly climaxed when master said "just feel the IQ points drain out of your pussy with your juices"

Other things were also there, but too profane for spelling it out here, and that too in written. :D

7/19/2014 6:57:57 AM
sorry for the long silence... was busy on professional front, hence things sort of dried up. sadly this post again isn't going to be bdsm oriented. for I really need help on another matter. my phone is about to die(my second phone this year.) the volume is too low, the battery backup is too bad, and screen has developed weird halos after being bathed in a patients vomitous. So long story short, I need a cheap but durable phone... not above 15k (so that even if it tanks in a few months, I'll at least not regret it.) so dear folks, please suggest me a phone off up to 15k (Indian rupees ). Need to decide and buy one within next week.

5/29/2014 1:30:25 PM

Master took me to Chandigarh/ Panchkula for a few days.Master, his couple of friends, and the HOST from chandigarh. Needless to say, it was an event filled weekend.

Some of the "newer" experiences were:

 

Master's first words on seeing the host, and pushing me towards the HOST:

"Cover that slut in her own filth, make her understand she’s just a piece of fucking meat for you to jam your cock in. Worthless goddamn whore."

 

 

The first "job" in service of the HOST, was:-

Ashopping list"-

Clothespins, at least 12. 

Condoms, at least 12(BTW, I got 20 of those).

A cucumber, large. 

KY jelly. 

Diclowin plus

Fresh ginger root. 

And finally a spatula. 

The glory of this little task is that not only did it get me well stocked for the days ahead, but it was also quite an amusing experience when I checked out. 

It may not seem like much, but by the time I checked out, I found myself feeling quite naked. Specially with the glares from the person at the counter.

 

Being a toilet paper holder for all the men in the house (there was another sub, she had other duties.)To clarify, it was my tits that were tied together and a roll hung from the thread.

 

A pillow cover over my head and was fucked will the severest neck extension i've endured till now. The tiny vertebrae of my neck ached like hell for several days later.

 

"It is important that this stupid fucking whore remembers it belongs to Me for My entertainment".(My master snapping a photo from my phone, while i have an orgasm)

And then he sarcastically says:-

"And so should its friends, family, co-workers and boyfriend. Isn’t technology wonderful?"

And imagine me pleading NO with a dick in my mouth.

 

(Not to mention a lot of stuff that master and the host saw on porn videos was tried as well. Too bad but it was a short trip, hopefully longer next time.)

 

As for the ride back, I had a flower(real flower, nothing porny) in my ass, and only bloomers and a tshirt on....the three toll collection boys had a nice sight. :)


5/12/2014 8:46:16 AM

It was 9th May, 2014 (My birthday, and exactly one year and a week as my sub).Master specially took the day off, just for me.It was fantastic. :)Nothing bdsm oriented, much to my surprise. It was just a natural loving day.Some events in evening were pretty wild. I'm sure that you can guess what all happened after that. :P 

Now time for some education.

 

FOR HER(As a sub):-

1) Do not trust your private info (Phone number, pics, address, anything that they can use to physically identify you.) in the first few talks.

2)At no point let him verbally or physically abuse you, unless you want it too.Session is different from everyday life.In a session, he has control over you, but unless agreed upon, you MUST never let him harm you in any way.(exception TPE and 24x7 relations)

3) Whenever you do decide to meet, do let someone know that you'll be out to meet a friend, and make sure that they call you if you do not contact her within a stipulated time.

4)SPECIFIC FOR INDIAN GIRLS:- Do not trust ANY guy you meet online, most are horny and sick old men, who want nothing more than a nice warm cover for their cocks aka your vagina(there are a few exceptions to this).They have tall tales of past "exploits", but ask them to show proof of any of it,and they'll immediately fall silent, and start calling you names instead. Surest sign of a FAKE DOM!! 

A true Dom understands your insecurities and accepts them, he then works with you to solve every doubt you may have to make sure that YOU are safe and sure of what you want.That is the kind of man you should follow/ believe.


FOR HIM (As a DOM):-

1)This is a request, please, the person on the opposite end is a human being, show some basic courtesy.She may be cuntmeat/ fuckslab/whore etc, but she is a human.ALWAYS remember that!

2)Most "female profiles" on websites such as this one, are actually males posing as a female.It frankly doesn't take a genius to determine that. Talk to them for five minutes and you are bound to notice something off.

3)You are DOM, act like it.We trust you and put our entire being on the line to be appreciated by YOU. Do make us feel safe, secure and cared for, and we will instantly melt in your hands.

4)SPECIFIC FOR INDIAN DOMS:- Please get your shit together. You know very well how the social structure in India is, and as such, anyone expecting a girl to straight away act like a female pornstar is simply unrealistic. Also when you boast, do keep in mind that the other person too has a mind (admittedly, most females, including myself are below you in intellectual levels but come on, we aren't exactly decerebrate.)

5)SPECIAL SUGGESTION:- Please don't ask incessantly about our past, it is our past for a reason. Asking what positions we like sounds like you are a  chum serving at a baskin robbins store, and are asking about what flavour of ice cream we like.By all means, go ahead and ask, asking is not at all bad, but asking pointless questions is a serious turnoff for some of us.

Hope everyone finds the perfect DOM/SUB.


4/21/2014 12:01:14 AM

It was the last day of the conference (been busy in this very heavy back breaking work for quite a while now), i get master's message :

"You've done well, get ready....we're going to eat out tonight"

 

Reading this i naturally yelp out with joy, for this usually means that i'll get a grand evening and dinner and then i can finally sleep on a comfy bed.

So I spent an hour picking out the outfit. Half an hour on the make up. He was pleased with my efforts, so he went ahead ripped my new dress to shreds and used my face as a masturbation aid. And all i got was 2ml. 


4/3/2014 10:19:39 PM

Some days, you are just so so so darn horny that you'd even fuck anything.

 

So horny that even an illness doesn't matter, and a sore throat makes you think (hell i already have a sore throat, so why not blow master for his satisfaction )

 

So damn horny that a fever is just another thing that's making the room hotter, more sensuous, more endearing.


3/23/2014 10:15:59 AM

The proudest moment for a sub is when master stands by your side and protects you from the bad bad world.Loved it. :)


2/18/2014 8:29:52 AM

Had a boring V-day. Only a Sms from master says happy V-day.

Today i was ordered to go to his friends place, and there i was tied naked to the roof railing for more than an hour. Was super embarrassing.

Not happy right now. 


1/1/2014 9:37:18 AM

ok, So starting today, i'll try and update this journal regularly, and hopefully it  will someday serve as a reminder of the good times i'm having ;)

So new year rolled in yesterday, and after being fucked contniously from morning to evening by master and his friends, i was thoroughly tired, yet i somehow welcomed the new year with master's cock inside of me, staring into the webcam and greeting his ex sub, our best wishes for a new year.

Otherwise had a great day. (Although my jaw and genitals slightly differ in their opinion, but I and my brain feel refreshed)

 

Helpful hint:- under no circumstance, should you suck on a cock covered in soap, and then absolutely not try to take in the cum+ soap mixture....terrible feeling later on. :(


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 Age: 35
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