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Oh what a morning...pulling the covers away from my tired green eyes, i open them to the warmth of the sun. Standing withouta care in the world i open the door and approach the day, letting a soft smile come across my soft pink lips i lift my arms above my head, letting out a soft moan i stretch high into the air. Feeling my muscles loosen i make my way to the kitchen, pouring myself a cup of coffee i ponder to myself "what shall this day hold?...will the man of my dreams walk into my life?". Sitting at my comp i give a blank stare as i wonder and wait. |
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Once again reflecting on the past i realize that it wasnt my fault at all, I was only a mere pawn in the chessgame we call life. Returning from the darkness of the world around me i see the sunlight shining thru the small white clouds above. Closing my eyes hiding from the light i lift a soft hand to my face, brushing the tear from my cheek i whisper aloud" oh but Master i loved you and you threw me away" Listening to my heartbeat become stronger with every whimper i lower my hand to my side and open my gorgeous green eyes to the sunlight. Letting the brightness rush thru me like a raging river rushing thru a desilate canyon i smile upon the brightness. Dropping to my knees in submission i pray upon the goddess of the sun to enlighten me once more. Feeling her warmth drop upon my silky skin i slowly raise into the light, letting my body flush with excitement of a new day i dry the last of my tears and begin to move freely thru the desilate land.
To those of you reading this it is my way of saying, you are a pawn in life as long as you stay in the game you will eventually be checked.
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So here i sit thinking to myself "i have found the perfect man in my life..I had found the perfect Master for me but suddenly in the blink of my eyes he has slipped right thru my fingertips
Reducing my tears to a soft whimper i whisper to myself "i hope he finds who he is looking for", wiping my eyes with a soft cloth i sit here and stare at the screen before me, wishing and wondering what happened. As many times as i go over things within my mind the answer never changes "Nothing". I did nothing for him to reject me or so it seems.
To Be Continued..... |
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Happy New Year !!!!Its been a very long year. im glad my year is looking up so far. ~smiles~he knows who he is and he is simply amazing. Thank you Rich for coming into my life, you mean alot to me and i know we are going to live a very happy year.
Yours
Candie
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Merry Christmas And Happy New Year !!!! |
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wow ive had a crazy week but ive made a decisions and 1 is them is IM Going to try once more. |
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For those of you who message me asking "are you collared now or uncollared"....Here is your answer: I Am UnCollared...As we all know this is the internet things are not always what it seems..I was collared for a brief moment in time and learned so many things about Tarayl that i never knew from just text...Some Good, Some Bad.....I Miss Him terribly but i realize dating anyone just isnt in gods plan for me... |
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Today i sit here wondering what IF......i was collared for the first time on july 15th...Yes yes before you ask ive served 24/7 but was never collared because i was always too scared to go thru with it ....well this time i did it ...(Yay Me).....but i got scared and have tried to run away from it......Tarayl is an amazing Master..loving, sweet and so down to earth that it scared me to love again....Shortly after i was collared i did what alot of scared women do and i ran away......i made the biggest mistake of my life....i cant help but wonder WHAT IF....... |
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OMG what is it with men ?
they expect us to drop our lives as we know it for them
i mean come on felllas get REAL !!!!!!!!!!!!!
my life before you was just that BEFORE you and it will be there AFTER you........
if you cannnot accept me for who i am or what i have then you are worthless to me or any woman
So please learn us before you start passing judgement or trying to control our lives
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i want to thank the Dom that i spent time with today
things were reallly nice but as we have both learned i have no tolerance for physical pain
i will need to evaluate myself and find a way to channel this pain.........if anyone has any ideas please share them
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i havent made a post in a while .....Yes im still Single........i met a great guy and felt the connection with him after all this time and all of a sudden when i mentioned meeting he disappeared....Where are all the Sexy real men.......im beggining to think its me....
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Happy New Years Everyone........... |
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This is my first entry..........Merry Christmas everyone....I am pleased to annouce i am still unowned........I have replied to many emails over the last few months and have only met 1 i was interested in .......But that seems to change as time goes on .......I have gotten many messages which i appreciate but the 1 liners are becoming a handful.......Im please asking that people refrain from sending me these messages......ALWAYS include a photo please!
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