NOT INTERESTED IN DOMINANTS THAT ARE NOT LOCAL TO MANHATTAN BEACH, NOR DO I WANT TO HOST VISITORS OR HAVE YOU AT MY HOME.  BE SUCCESSFUL AND STAY AT A NICE HOTEL AT THE BEACH.  I'VE BEEN A SISSY ALL MY LIFE WITH MORE EXTREME EXPERIENCE THAN MOST AND INTERESTED IN MEETING SUCCESSFUL ALPHA MEN, CHEAP HAS NEVER BEEN ATTRACTIVE TO ME.

A former man living an illusionary life as an Alpha male involved in the BDSm community for over three decades, raced motorcycles, enjoyed extreme skiing, scuba and sky diving, competitive trap shooting, participate in skeet and sporting clays. Professionally I’m a partner of a commercial and industrial brokerage firm.

I had my first dressing experience when I was ten sneaking into my mothers closet when my parents were away and loved the feeling of her pantyhose and panties. I’d often put them on and sneak around at night running around the neighborhood behind cars, obviously the thrill was driving me. By the time I was in high school I was conditioned to be an Alpha and got involved in manly illusions early on.

It was well into adulthood that I realized something was amiss, I was successful and had been dating a number of beautiful women and lived with several. However, when I was living with a former beauty queen and couldn’t get erect I knew there was an issue. When she eventually moved out I found a pair of her panties and like many of you that rekindled my latent sissy tendencies.

However, a lifetime of Alpha illusions in business and play soon had me being more dominant than submissive with other gurls and men. I’ve always had interested suitors, but after a lifetime of Alpha illusions myself, I found little interest in wannabe dominants, those with little or no social skills or limited perspectives that typically ended at their noses.

I went through the early stages of dressing, got better, learned makeup, bought clothes and attended trans and cross-dressing clubs for years, participating in the annual Viva Wildside in Las Vegas for years and made several friendships. Over the past twelve or thirteen years I’ve had few Masters, but the few I’ve had have been successful, fit Black Alpha men. All understood the concept, control the mind the body will follow.

Intense people require intensity and during my journey I’ve experienced extreme experiences of humiliation and pain which eventually leads to a dark intense hunger that pulls one further into the abyss.