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I want to thank all of you who sent me messages of support and after my stay with my former owners.
A few people have asked similar questions so I thought I would answer them all at once
1. I went to them willingly, but looking back it was too soon and they used my inexperience against me. It was impossibly hard at times, but that is what I wanted. It was perfect 90% of the time but the other 10% was lacking
2. They lied to me about wanting something longterm. They just wanted a bdsm sex toy and never tired to improve me as a slave or person. They never "cared" for me and basically that was the 10% I need to serve 24/7.
3. I am fine. I am working in London. I am taking the rest of this semester off, and may re-enroll in September but I might take a hear out.
4. I love London and the Olympics!!
5. i appreciate the offers many of you have made to me, but I'm going to take my time before getting back to D/s fully. I will be a slave again, I feel that it is my calling.
6. I would be lying if i said i didn't get wet thinking sometimes about the use that the couple gave me. It stirred the true slave in me. The brutality and cruelty of the use they gave me truly showed me that I am slave. True pain, humiliation and control are everything they are cracked up to be. But I now know I need more
7. I never said no to them but through their lies and tricks they hurt me more deeply than any cane
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So it has been a while since I wrote anything here so I thought I would fill you in a bit more.
I am happier than ever serving my couple. Every day still brings new experiences and challenges but I hope I am still making my owners proud. I now know that I am happiest serving them in every way they require.
College is going well. Off now for two weeks for Easter, then a study week and then the dreaded exams!! I am actually doing better than ever there because of my owners. It is like that I want to do the best in everything I do from ironing shirt, to taking a cropping to finishing an assignment. I am starting to feel that all my actions are a reflection on my owners.
Do any other subs or slaves feel similar?
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Sorry for the recent absence, My Mistress has been ill and all my energy and time has been spent looking after her. I hope you all understand and I promise to catch up over the next few days. |
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I spent an interesting evening in an ankle spreader and steel yoke. It made me feel so open and vulnerable not being able to even hide or protect me self. |
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Sorry for the lack of chat recently, I have been a bit overwhelmed with being a slave and student. I suppose it is not a bad complaint to have!! |
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2 more suggestions for the skills list
Massage
Manicure and pedicure |
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Hi all of collarme!!
I hope everyone is having a great 2012 and is keeping their New Years Resolutions!!
A good friend of mine here told me a few skill that any sub or slave would find useful. Since living and serving my couple I have added a few more.
I would love to hear from other subs, slave, switches and Dominants about areas I should gain expertise in.
Here is my list so far. Maybe later I will tell you some that I currently am working on and the ones that I am considered "expert" at (blushes)
Physical fit
Honest and truthful
Loving
Flexible
Erotic dance
Dance and movement in general
Deep throating
Kegal exercise
Cooking
Cleaning
Good conversationalist
Knowledge about clothing styles
Would love to hear more :)
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Well that is another kinky activity ticked off the to do list. Thank you Sir and Miss for truly pushing your slave. Next time I promise I will last longer.
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First night without my new owners, missing them :( |
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I hate failing my owners and being punished. I feel so unworthy of their time and efforts sometimes. |
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So a few people have been curious about my situation and have asked a few questions. I hope this helps to answer them
Is your friend still interested in bdsm?
Yes aoife is still learning about bdsm and loving it so far. She has had a few great experiences so far and I have been so happy to help her safely start her journey. She is more of a submissive/bottom than slave/submissive and more into keeping bdsm separate from her vanilla life but she will continue in her journey.
Are you still in university?
Yes I still am. It was a condition of the couple that I stay in college. They expect me to have a 70% average for this semester or I will be punished.
Do you have limits?
Yes I do, hard and soft ones. I have been told a slave does not have limits but that is not me.
How old are your couple?
Sir will be 40 in March and Miss is 36. Both are in excellent shape and have put me to shame with my fitness.
Hope that helps!! |
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Sore, tired, used but happy |
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A new chapter in my life is starting tomorrow. I am moving into my couples household I will be serving them as a slave while still going to college.
I know this will be some of the hardest experiences of my life but I hope it will be some of my happiest.
Scared and excited!!!
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Hi Everyone,
I just wanted to say a public thanks to all the special people I have met on collarme. I have learnt more about myself in the last 3 months than in the past 10 years.
Happy New Years to everyone!!
And apologies for my delayed replies for the next few days, I am being a busy girl serving my couple :) Did not think I would be able to write that this year!!
Hugs and Kisses
sarah |
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Tired, sore but very happy |
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Hello Collarme,
I thought I might fill you in about recent developments in my bdsm side.
Since the night I mentioned in my past journal entry I have started serving a couple. Thing have been great with them. They are very experienced in bdsm and both are naturally very dominant and assertive. And I think they enjoy using this slave!!
They both intense and in many areas extreme. I have really been pushed but I needed that to see if I am actually able to handle "hard" bdsm
Another development was me being able and needing to tell a friend about my bdsm side. Aoife was super cool about it and even a little curious about it. Maybe she will join collarme,lol.
I am off to serve the couple for my second full weekend so fill you in later
sarah |
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Really nervous but excited for tonight. Thanks to the two special girls here that gave me the confidence to push myself. |
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