"When the student is ready, the Master appears. ” Buddhist Proverb

long weekends should have good weather. that should be the law.

T has arranged for a meet with another man. we drive to the SP layby and he parks the car. i take off my jeans and sweater, i am wearing my micro skirt, boots and bra. the van stops some 10 - 12 yards from us. T tells me to get out and walk towards the van, promises to follow me. the man opens the door and i am inside. he calls me whore and pulls me to him. his breath is heavy and smelly as he kisses me and asks me where my friend is. i tell him to hit the break, its the signal T is waiting for, and soon T is in the van too. one on each side of me. i feel their frenzy as tey unwrap me and suddenly the van driver is pushing his rod in me as  bend towards T to suck his cock. i feel his rod entering me, slowly, pushing its way in me, that intense strong feeling of his urge to trespass my anus. A the same time, T's hand is on my head, pushing me down on him. I feel like a whore for them as they take turns on me, this mans cock is thick and i feel it open my sphyncter, there is this smell of sex in the van, the moisture inside, the tension as each probes my anus, and i suckboth in turn too. Suddenly the man is pulling my cock and balls backward, holding them tight with one hand, slapping the tight balls with the other making me feel the pain and the urge, telling me what a orthless whore i am. yes i am all that...

we meet again, its the 3rd time this week that he is using me. as usual, very few words, nothing much has to be said. it doesnt upset me, i am also shy and there is little purpose in chitchat. i know the office, i know what he wants. it is dark and chilly as i undress for him. he has brought some nylon straps. i know he doesnt like to touch my cock and balls so i take one and fasten it on tight on on nut, then do the same to the other. then i take a biger and thicker one and place it at the base of my cock. it strts to grow in sizeand i feel the pressure. i bend down on the chair and place my hands flat on the desk as he inserts his hard cock in me. rough as always, with his urge to get inside me. feel his hand on my neck pushing me down, my face is on the best as he fucks me deeper and deeper.

his breathing is a tell tale, i know he is about to expled as he pulls on the tips of the straps to make me beg for him.

he lets me free and i waait for him to tell me to stand up.

when i turn he is fully dressed and is handing me a snall knife to cut the straps.

we drive in silence, he drops me near my house.

i know he will be back.

my anus is burning, my balls and cock hurt and have red stripes. i go to my room and jack off until i explode.

he picked me up last night at the usual place, he seems to be thee always before the set time. we drive the 10 minutes to his office in silence. i know he doesnt want me to talk, i know his ways and likes now.

the office is dark and empty, and he leads me to rhe usual room where we play. i undress for him and sit on the des facing him. he has a ribbon in his hands now and he ties my nuttsac very tight. tells me to stand up and pull me across the room pulling me by the other end of the ribbon. then he tells me to get on my knees on the chair and face the wall. feel the nuts being stretched, pulled back, the feeling of ecstasy invades my body. finally he speaks and says you need it so bad ian dont you, and i agree.

then i feel his rod entering me. no lube, the way he likes it. one of his hands is now under me twisting and pulling as he enters me deep.

he has learned to take his time, is getting used to my hole, he takes this time probably 15 minutes to breed it. then he pulls off and when i turn he is fully dressed. he tells me to place my cock on the desk and he takes te wooden ruler and starts hitting, methodically.

i feel the pain inside, the breathlesness that comes from it. 'you will cum when you get home, wont you boi? and he knows i will. we drive back insilence again. it was again one of his nights.

i prefer long sessions, but sometimes its nice to feel the urge of others, when the unexpected things happen. thank you Tom, it was great and i hope you also enjoyed it. the thrill of sucking you deep and to the end in that car park was amazing even though it was so quick. i went home with your taste in me.  thank you and lets hope you have time to meet again.

new girl clothes i bought thru ebay have arrived.

3 thin needles in each testicle...

more than the pain, it is the visual impact, the fear.

feeling the needle go deep, seeing it come through at the other end, when the pain is more extreme.

watching as the erection grows, then feeling the sound go inside the peelhole, burning sensation, stinging.., incredible

it is amazing to be able to feel that i can please. to know what i truly am. to do this away from home and friends, to be able to feel it so intense, to cry and yet enjoy. to be there for them, to feel my asshole bred by them.

never thought sodomy could be as extreme as the one i had yesterday evening. still recovering from it, gaped and feeling it inside.

I have been invited to visit California over Easter. I hope this turns out to be an excellent opportunity to find more about myself.