I find total submission (TPE) to my Master Husband and with online Doms sexually attractive and emotionally satisfying. I feel the more I submit to my Master "and online Doms" and their fantasies....the more I control them and their feelings for me...It's like Yin and Yang......

True and complete surrender without any shame...letting myself go..to every whim beck and call of my Master Husband and submitting to his training..is riding into subspace heaven...

Depriving me of clothes and making me crawl on all fours. K-nineing me or she-sleening me, living like an gorean and sleeping in a cage. and 100% consensual, becoming engrossed in a shameless display of wanton sexuality without any shame in the midst of an aroused meditative state of submission is true bliss for me. Nudity of emotions...a vulnerability of the soul is more compelling than stripped naked and paraded by my Master on the Wasington D.C mall with the navy band playing. Master inspecting body cavities in public. Master commanding this slave to take up slave positions in public.

True surrender to my caring Master Husband seems love to me, I find joy in giving myself up in mind, body, soul and spirit. It's about understanding what's been in my heart and mind for ever, learning and training to accept rather than fight it. It's about seeing clearly what I truly want, working for it, shamelessly accepting it and being proud of it. I want to be true to my own inner self ...at least in a secretive private sort of way..and not what society wants me to be.

I crave the feeling of being powerless and totally controlled mentally, physically, emotionally, sexually and the tingly feeling of powerless that wraps itself around me as I am forced to unconditionally surrender and whimper " yes Master" with moist eyes. Thank you Master - Your wish is my command.

I get turned on by commands: slave position commands for instance, like: http://trainherwell.blogspot.com/2012/03/building-obedience-in-slave.html or http://trainherwell.blogspot.com/2009/03/she-sleen-position.html or oral servitude commands - otherwise known as "cock worship", or "oral with humble and downcast eye kneeling naked" or slave training commands, humiliation commands, or put through the paces that my Master wants me to?.

I get immensely turned on by a Master creating a feeling of helplessness in me, the invasion of my personal space and control of my body and mind into absolute submission in the most indecent way...even online and particularly by male Doms, love dress control. Crave the feeling of a Dom making my mind betray me for the sensual pleasure of humiliation and submission as my body helplessly follows. Shameless? Please No! I am honest!.

Beyond obedience http://youtu.be/SyQF0imyuz8

I have often been emailed for advice by Masters, Mistresses, subs and slaves Here it is:

What one thing (above all else) you can do to be a better Master/Mistress or be a better slave/sub? or waiting to find that perfect D/s relationship.... Here is our answer: me and my Master Husband have been practicing T.M (Transcendental Meditation every day. 10 min in the morning and sometimes 10 in the evening) me safe in our bedroom on my knees naked at his feet and Master Husband in his chair meditating. This slave and her Master have been doing it for over 10 years now. We both unanimously agree 100% that if we are to do one thing to improve our D/s relationship...It's T.M that has changed us.. A kind of bliss, happiness, and euphoria, that's can't be explained with words..(with TM and creative visualization, you can replay your best orgasms 10s of times in your mind deep within your consciousness chakras "In other words - the best cyber sex you can ever have).It's surreal and has to be experienced, can't be described. You may add Creative visualization training to this and add binaural beats training too...and it's absolute heaven.

TM http://www.tm.org/

TM – Sidhi program http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/TM-Sidhi_program Creative visualization http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Creative_visualization Pineal gland http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1zCxVswwMkA Pineal gland Activator http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3h2mJnvRbZ8 Consciousness Activation : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pIJHJzDQcRM It's Time To Wake Up - We Are All One : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pIJHJzDQcRM

my Master Husband created this profile for reasons best known to him and ordered me to show it here: http://www.collarme.com/bdsm/v/1668830/photos.htm Master Husband also said for every email that is a compliment to me...This slave is to do the slave positions routine for my Master once. If this slave is rude to any Master or Mistress or slave or sissy (male or female) online..This slave is to be spanked twice for every email received stating she is so. Please....no false emails...please... And Yes! I do have SYNESTHESIA!!!! ...not that it tells you anything more about me!. Maybe subs go hand in hand with Synesthesia!!! go figure it out. and Yes! I have moved to SL mostly now. I want to expose myself and my feelings emotionally, intimately and sexually online at collarme without shame, fear of reprisal, humiliation or ridicule in a secretive way. (with Master Hubby's permission of course)

We have small children, we are also considering giving up our D/s lifestyle in about 3 to 5 years, as this does not go well with normal sensible adults raising normal children in a mature way. So we are very conflicted with our lifestyle and are very much troubled and by it at times as children come first not our erotic D/s fantasies.

We are an easy going, liberal and open minded couple. I enjoy chatting, being dommed online, micromanaged by strict and control freak doms who are also respectful and kind helping me find my erotic peaks and exposing me to new sensations and in return me doing something to turn them on..and I respect them for it.
I still have a lot to learn to fulfill my Master's fantasies and it helps me learn about myself, and my Master. I like to talk online with Male doms, and even female dommes about their training experiences and how to be a good slave. I like to talk with a good teacher. I am a natural slave and Master/slave, D/s relationship - it's like an addiction...: the more I get the more I want. Yes - I am shameless in admitting it...But we have set up boundaries and have mastered ways to contain it. I am not sure how far I want to take this. But there are limitations set by my Master, circumstances, time limits, kids and our own emotions.

I am in a loving sensual monogamous relationship with my husband and am not interested in sex outside marriage without my partner's permission Which is almost always a NO. So Doms interested in a r/t relationship with me hoping that they can persuade me otherwise, or I will change my mind should not email or contact me. I am not shared anymore except on unusual occasions and with a couple and a Dom that we have known for a very long time. My Master Husband does not have any plans to share me with folks this slave meets online.

I am fine and okay with an online relationship that will never be anything in real life if you desire the same. For me, D/s lifestyle is by choice that I like to live by as much as I can. It's the dominance and submission in conversations and actions with you online that I crave and desire.

about me: sweet as honey, daring as Xena, feisty bitch, loyal, enigmatic, unpredictable, intelligent, intuitive, funny as hell, adventurous, charismatic, hardheaded brat, friendly, anti-feminist bitch, agnostic, passionate, libertarian and a flaming liberal With a big mouth and a heart to match it...

About my fantasies: I have many, Here is one: My online life will be step by step controlled and taken over the no-return point by a controlling online Master who works in tandem with my Husband Master...love to be micromanaged...

... and in my slavery i have found my true control...

I used to have page after page of my journal under ID:obedientlaura until collarme screwed it up...This has happened 3 times now...So I am not going to write in my journals here....If you want to read about me:

http://thesubmissivelife.blogspot.com

http://thetrainingoflaura.blogspot.com

http://obedientlaura.blogspot.com

http://twitter.com/obedientlaura

http://lauraslave.blogspot.com

http://pavloviantraining.blogspot.com

http://obedientlaura.tumblr.com

http://www.youtube.com/user/obedientlaura

My take on collarme users: http://thesubmissivelife.blogspot.com/2009/09/my-take-on-collarme-users.html

Slave Register #617-288-041 - registered as owned 03-30-2002 As a natural slave (perhaps conditioned ) I know the immensely fulfilling sexual thrill I get out of the Master/slave relationship but I have always wondered what the Master gets out of it that he craves it so much? I often feel the slave is in total control of the whole situation with her unconditional submission...and the Master is just trained differently and is none the wiser for it......... As a slave I often wonder how can something which is so physically, emotionally and mentally exciting and stimulating for the slave deliver such a potent desire in a Master? A mystery to me...perhaps an evolutionary instinct that has worked so well..but never the less a mystery....but puzzled when I find that there are 25 Masters for each willing slave....life is strange......Charles Darwin was right all along.......god help the poor religious lunatics.....and their self defeating rules for society....

Laura on Pat Robertson, Allah, Hindus :

Pat Robertson's sermons are all seem like BDSM. Have you noticed? He is fond of using BDSM-sounding terminology in the course of his spiritual warfare incantations, with lots of talk about "binding" demons and "taking authority" over Satan, obedience and submission, surrender to him, embarce his power, kinky stuff indeed. Now I know why I was so turned on in Church..even without my ben-wa in me. For God is not a God of disorder but of peace. As in all the congregations of the saints, women should remain silent in the churches. They are not allowed to speak, but must be in submission, as the Law says. If they want to inquire about something, they should ask their own husbands at home; for it is disgraceful for a woman to speak in the church. ”
—1 Corinthians 14:33-35

And not forgetting the Islamists : In the Name of Allah, Most Merciful and Compassionate, (bi'l ma`ruf),...bla bla bla... as Allah bullshits us in the Qur'an : The wife needs to obey any and all and even unreasonable sexual demands including bondage, oral, anal or the use of sex toys or savior the holy water. If she complains or decides to disagree to such matters--in a way that is not physically, emotionally, or relationally harmful nor demeaning or unbecoming of Allah's honoring of humans--then she must be stoned (alcohol or shrooms) before she is given another chance... this is purely her Master's decision Even Allah does not have a say in this... "His devine veto powers are revoked at this stage: . Amen! or should I say "Walaikum assalam wa rahmatullah"

Watch these videos and say sayonara to your religion. It will do you good. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X2epvSAGuLc and this one: The Dark Side of http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oPjVCwec6oQ&feature=related ehhh! religion is disguising...including Christianity....ugggg!!! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0MbdiXxJWRI&feature=related

And in hinduism: Kama Sutra can be considered as one of the first written resources dealing with sadomasochistic activities and safety rules. What can I say, the learned hindus knew and did it all centuries before the white man (and white woman) found the G-spot. "I am proud to be a kama Sutra girl". For reference: http://www.spaceandmotion.com/kamasutra-positions.htm

Praise the lingam and the yoni, Wish we English and the Muslims never stepped into India and let you export kama sutra and Amanita Muscaria shrooms instead.

The Kama Sutra, in the 4th century CE, speaks of spanking the bottom, consensual face slapping, pussy slapping, and forced nudity as a form of arousal. Seems BDSM back then to me..

If you are not an experienced Master then please say so in your emails....and at least become familiar with the process. I get many emails from wannabe Masters who don't have much of an idea on what it takes to be a Master......At least learn the ropes from the internet first.: http://trainherwell.blogspot.com or http://bestslavetraining.com

If you are a conservative republican, feminist, feminazi, anti-globalization, tea bagger, pro-war, anti-immigration, pro religion....You will not be able to connect and befriend me or take my blogs well....so please spare us both and don't waste your time contacting me......We would not connect anyway. Romney supporters are an exception . What a Pity Romney joined the Republicans.

What's in it for me:

It’s probably every Master’s dream to cage train his slave. Ok here is a secret- coming straight from a slave...shhhhhhh!. The desire to be caged can be very strong in a slave. - As strong as it is in a Master to cage his slave.

At least I have had very strong and passionate desire to be stripped naked and caged...."Honest and 'shameless me' speaking here". yet I was always fearful of such. Trust being the foremost. For me...when it happened it felt like the culmination of a lifetime of fantasies and dreams. My stomach was filled with butterflies, I broke out in a cold sweat in the middle of hot summer, my body started to tingle with goosebumps and my breathing became labored...I suddenly realized it was all happening to me.....I was aroused and dripping.....To be captured and dragged off into capture and forced servitude or usage by a Master is to many the ultimate act of desire on the part of the Master. There is the relinquishment of responsibility. The acknowledgment of acquired possession. It is to feel valued. Desirable and desired. In addition there is the removal of constraint. An element of freedom and release of inhibition are intricately intertwined around the concept of being captured, caged, used, owned, possessed and forced.

My Master is an artist, This slave is his clay, with the whip my Master will shape me, with humility my Master will mold me, with determination my Master will train me, Some will admire me, But only my Master, not even this slave, will know her true beauty, for her true beauty lies in her love for her Master.

I am not a typical sub/slave, and I will not "play" a role - something which seems to be the norm on collarme. For me, power exchange is far more psychological and emotional than physical...and there has to be a connection before I submit online.

Here's what makes sense to me, Does it do the same to you? Master Sir? ---- When you the Master have to remove sex from the equation, I the slave have to work on other parts of the training in order to be obedient. I don’t have sex as something which motivates, so I simply have to be willing to listen to my online Master because I am told to do something. Conversely, my Master who controls this slave without the added help of sex will find that he will have to be more dominating in his words and in his behavior. This way, He can control this slave while also training himselves to behave in the way he needs to behave. Getting inside of this slave’s head without the use of sex can be difficult, but it can certainly be done with creative regular training sessions which are based on pleasing the one who is in control of the situation. If you are sincerely up to this Sir...and You Sir are not in conflict with my political and religious opinions....We can connect Master Sir. This slave will be honored to chat with you to see if there is a connection Sir.

Sex isn’t actually vital to my training, Master Sir. Because, in an online relationship control aspect is usually strong enough on its own. If sex is something that is used as a motivator, chances are good the training isn’t strong enough on its own. A Master should be able to control the slave, even when they aren’t going to enjoy any sex at the end. The slave should be willing to do what is asked of her because it pleases her online Master., not because she is getting a reward. A slave who is only motivated by rewards at the end is a slave who is going to present more problems for her Master. This is a slave who has been spoiled when she thinks she should be rewarded for her hard work.BDSM without sex is something quite common that I have experienced in groups and chats online. Those who are interested in testing out power roles and dominance might simply want to dominate a person for a night to see how it feels or just to see what they can train a slave to do. And then they can choose to go home, without sex being a part of the agreement. While sex is often very enjoyable with BDSM – it is not crucial.

“And doesn't your wife protest at such things?” They (a novice couple) asked...examining my shock collar...

“Indeed no,” was my Master Husband's reply, “In fact, in time, she seem to relish the opportunity to be trained well to please me.” --True conversations with a couple we met recently.... "In the end it doesn't matter what anybody else thinks about you. People are gonna forget you about 10 minutes after you die anyway. The point is you have to be exactly who and what you want to be. Most everybody's coasting along on phony public relations. People who say being beautiful or rich or thin makes them happy, people who are trying to make their marriages or their children seem better than they actually are. And for what? Appearances. Appearances don't count for diddly. When its all said and done, all that counts is what was true and truly felt and how we treated one another...and that's it.

"I always wanted to be a slave . I refused to let society dictate its behavior of woman....I always wanted a male Master lying over me, always over me...His will, his pleasure, his desire, his life, his work, his sexuality the touchstone, the command, my pivot...as a woman, oh, God, as a woman I want to be dominated...I wanted to be pursued, fucked, possessed by the will of a male at his time, his bidding." -- Laura Y

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Give a girl the right training and she will get her Master to conquer the world. ~ leashedlaura

I would like to think of you as more than a Master and trainer....but I have limited thinking ability at this moment.

"In repentance and rest is your salvation, in quietness and trust is your strength." ~ Isaiah 30:15

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The Kama Sutra, in the 4th century CE, told of spanking the bottom, consensual face slapping, pussy slapping as a form of arousal. Seems BDSM back then to me..

A slave can become the canvas for her Masters work. -- laura

love and kisses from laura

"It is said that a woman who has experienced slave orgasm can never thereafter be anything but a man's slave. She then knows what men can do to her, and what she herself is, a woman. Never thereafter can she be anything else." (Explorers of Gor, p.13)

"One of the great pleasures of making love to a slave is the uncompromising exploitation of her marvelous sexual sensitivities, her helplessnesses, they putting her so much in your power, enabling you to do with her as you please and obtain from her what you want. She may be brought up and down, as you please, at your will, at your mercy, and played like an instrument. She may, if you wish, be held short of her ecstasy, cruelly, if you desire, or, in a moment, with a touch, granted it. There are few sights so exciting and beautiful as a helplessly orgasmic slave crying out her submission and love." (Vagabonds of Gor, p.216)

Female slavery is the institutionalized expression, in a civilization congenial to nature, of the fundamental biological relationship between the sexes. In the institution of female slavery we find this basic relationship recognized, accepted, clarified, fixed and celebrated." (Savages of Gor, p.193-4)