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Life leads us on multiple journeys, one only hopes they choose the correct one. Please be local and willing to meet in person. Tgis is a personal life choice and have never faired well with long distance

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3/19/2018 2:28:09 PM
In my next life I better come back as a pampered house cat!

12/6/2017 7:49:32 PM
Merry Christmas

2/27/2017 12:33:13 AM
Happy being me.

6/9/2016 4:05:04 PM
Thought of the day: is true domination possible in today's world or do we just pretend?

11/16/2015 2:48:01 AM
Please remember that no matter what we all have feelings.

8/27/2015 10:00:35 PM
I am seeking a Dom who can love my little and allow her to flourish, as well as the slave in me. At this point in my life my little has totally been rejected. He thought she was cute for awhile then it just annoyed him. I do not use the little as an excuse to get out of trouble or into trouble. She helps me relieve the stress of the world. 
The slave in me wants to be owned and loved. Maybe those two things do not go together in the real world I do not know. In my mind they do though. I am an educated woman, who is about to finish a degree in accounting. I have been pretty much self reliant for years, even while being owned. 

I am honest about my faults, like most bigger people I have self worth issues. I am beyond overweight. I admit it, am I changing it no. Should I change it yes. I have been told on occasion that I am repulsive, that no Dom would have me due to my size, and that if I see no self worth in myself why would anyone want to own me.
I guess my answer to those people is that I am worthy of love, trust and loyalty. I am fat who gives a damn. I also bring so much more to the table, examples my sense of humor, my caring nature, sometimes my bitchiness, my ability to be hurt by careless people. I also make a wonderful biscuit and gravy. :) 

I guess that I am seeking the man who understands all sides of me, the good and the bad. 

8/19/2015 12:45:07 AM

== Results from http://bdsmtest.org/ ==
100% Submissive
98% Bondage receiver
94% Degradation receiver
91% girl/boy
91% Masochist
84% Ageplayer
81% Slave
79% Brat
74% Primal (Prey)
67% Experimentalist
32% Pet
21% Exhibitionist
19% Non-monogamist
12% Daddy/Mommy
6% Vanilla
2% Sadist
0% Owner
0% Brat tamer
0% Voyeur
0% Bondage giver
0% Switch
0% Primal (Hunter)
0% Master/Mistress
0% Degradation giver
0% Dominant
0% All-Rounder
See my results online at http://bdsmtest.org/result.?id=607141


8/6/2015 4:58:06 AM

I am a "little". I love sleeping with my stuffies and coloring. When I feel safe I let this side of me show. Most people in the community never knew I was a little due to the fact I kept it hidden.
I am awake tonight thinking about my life and trying for the best of me to forgive and let go. To recognize my mistakes and where I should improve, to make for a better me. Self reflection is never an easy process, but always a necessary one. I realize there are people in my life who think I never take responsibility for my actions but they are incorrect.
Places where I screwed up were:
- believing that I was repulsive and to fat for a sexual relationship
- letting the routines set up to die away, instead of holding fast to them
- not forgiving when my feelings were hurt
- lack of communication, I have a difficult time telling people how I truly feel especially if I think it will hurt their feelings or may get me into trouble.
- forgetting what makes me happy and focusing on that when I was home and letting my outside life influence my submission.
- simply forgetting who and what I am.

I type this hoping to find my inner peace once again. To knowledge to myself that no one person is responsible for the failure of a relationship. It takes 2 people to build a relationship and 2 people to destroy it. Also to remind myself as time goes on that just because I feel as I am in a dark place at this time in my life there is hope and ways to climb out of this hole again.


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