4/22/2022 9:51:10 PM: == Results from bdsmtest.org ==  100% Slave 100% Rope bunny  96% Submissive  91% Masochist  89% Non-monogamist  86% Pet  83% Brat  80% Experimentalist  79% Degradee  71% Voyeur  62% Primal (Prey)  43% Exhibitionist  34% Vanilla  3% Ageplayer  0% Daddy/Mommy  0% Rigger  0% Owner  0% Master/Mistress  0% Sadist  0% Boy/Girl  0% Dominant  0% Switch  0% Degrader  0% Brat tamer  0% Primal (Hunter) 

2/2/2022 10:29:22 AM: Hello everyone, it's a pleasure to see that journal entries are back without kicking the profile into the twilight zone! I've been working with another gentleman on this site for CBT.  It's been very informative, and as an exploration it's quite interesting!  I hope to go further, so that my tolerance for pain is increased.  Hopefully the more abuse I can accept, the more attractive I become to those who enjoy their sadism.

10/16/2017 9:40:35 PM: I was thinking the other day that a lot of people don't realize they are on a journey.  Here's what I think:  I want to be a slave.  Property.  An owned thing; chattel.  Now, I realize that's a drastic step to take, but I see it as a journey.  Or, more like a decent.At the top of the stairs, here I am.  A normal functional member of society.  I have a job, I pay my taxes, etc.The next steep down is a relationship where I show my love and devotion to my partner.Another step down is showing I am submissive...my partner rules, I follow.As the steps down go further, so does the submission until you reach a point called slavery.Then you can go further down... Gimp, then object.See it takes awhile!  Be patient.  The good slaves are out there. :)

9/13/2015 4:28:42 PM: I find it interesting that there are some who claim they are 'dominant' and send me a few lines giving me orders to email them through yahoo, or somesuch to prove my worth.Um, no.  It doesn't work that way.  I am a slave, yes.  Or, rather, I WANT to be YOUR slave.  Perhaps.  You see, I view slavery as a relationship.  In the beginning, I would start as a submissive.  That means that there are limits, there are things you won't do, or I won't do, or whatever.  This is the part where we do something that is apparently unique on the internet: build trust.At some indeterminate point, you would then 'pop the question' - 'Do you wish to become my slave?'.  To which, I would respond yes or no, depending upon how much trust we have established.  Know this: I am fully aware and expecting you to be on the same page as me.  When you ask me this question, what you are really asking is: Are you prepared to surrender your life to me?  Yes, life.  That means, am I prepared to die for you?  To kill for you?  To do EVERYTHING in my power for you?  If you ask me that question, I must answer it to the best of my ability.This is serious shit, right?  Right.Because it's at this point that, if I say 'Yes', I give up everything for you.  I surrender to you my life, my financial savings, everything.  They are all yours to do with as you wish.Some will squeal with glee...they have found a pay piggie!!  Um, sorry, not into that.  Some will delight in torturing me endlessly and using me for their sadistic pleasures!  Um, yah, if you start with that you won't earn this slave.  But if you build trust with me, build a RELATIONSHIP with me... then yes, you have found what you are looking for!  A toilet slave, a pain pig, a object for you to use and abuse... always and forever.Why?  Because I trust you.  Because you and I have built a relationship, and I know that you care for me, as much as I care for you.  And once I say YES, I have knowingly given up all my rights as a human.  And now I am yours.That's a pretty powerful thing to give, isn't it?  Shouldn't I be careful who I give that to?