i need help. 

i need help being able to adjust to the fact that i'm just 

a slave by someone being willing to be the FIRST one to 

dominate me.

i don't care if it would be 3 days or 3 weeks or 3 months 

or would be to actually enslave me.

i don't care if it would be old or young or tall or short 

or fat or thin.

i don't care if it would be a Master or switch or even 

another slave who was willing. 

And i also have come up with a way, myself, that i can 

GAURANTEE anyone if they WERE willing to consider this that 

i'll be completely easy, safe and unlimited for them. No 

discussing and negotiating. No chance to back out. No 

chance to limit them. No chance that i'd try and cry rape.

The ONLY problem i do have is just that i couldn't LIKE it! 

So someone who'd be willing to ACTUALLY control, degrade, 

train and use me even though i REGRETTED agreeing to that 

and WISHED i could get out. Someone who when they saw that 

would NOT stop. Either they'd simply ENJOY that, or they'd 

keep dominating me for my OWN good, or both.

It's become clear that i'm stuck in a Catch-22 where you 

can't get a job without experience and you can't get 

experience without a job!!! i know it's just natural that i 

WOULD adjust if someone WILL dominate me. But i now realize 

that i CAN'T adjust to being a slave on my OWN, WITHOUT 

being dominated. 

So i don't EVEN care how MUCH or how LITTLE someone would. 

To me ANY would be far better than NOTHING, while the MORE 

would just help me even MORE. Just anyone willing to be a 

slaves FIRST time and so will NOT stop because the slave 

wishes He would. Basically, someone who'd agree that if i 

couldn't handle it then that would mean *i* had problems 

and need help getting past them, not that He was wrong and 

should stop.

Also, i'm broke, but i'm good at lots of different work. 

And i would not be shocked or offended if someone was only 

willing because they had a big job they wanted done and 

they could use me to do it. If anything i'd probably just 

feel BETTER if that happened, since then it would be more 

of a two-way street and i did something to help them, not 

just them helping me.