9/13/2017 11:39:32 PM: September 13, 2017I am back. What a fun/brutal summer. I am taking 18 hours of classes again. More to follow. I have a ton of emails to catch up on.  Yes, I am still with my GF and closer than ever before despite a really brutal summer with her former college room mate.More to follow soon.Ellie

5/1/2017 12:40:09 AM: Wow. May 2017.  Exams. I have decided to take the summer off. I might waitress or take a single course, but nothing major. I am beat from academics. Looking like all A’s again, but I really worked for it. I have had some emails with questions. Am I a Domme? No. In my relationships I am totally submissive, but in real life situations like in school, I am hard core. My lab partner in one of my classes is a super cute Asian girl from Canada. She and I are the top students. We are both very attractive, and very self confident. We really don’t put up with crap, especially from guys. She has a boyfriend, and she knows I have a girlfriend. We really get what the other is all about.  More than a few of the guys think we are complete bitches. I think they are just angry that a couple of attractive femmes are way smarter and sophisticated than they are , and have the grades to prove it. So I am not a Domme, but I can more than hold my own when needed. If that’s being dominant, so be it. Anyway. This was just a short journal entry. Am busy studying, and I have NOT been over to the other couple’s place in about 4 weeks.   May sessions are not likely either due to exams and projects,  The summer however may prove interesting. Ellie

4/17/2017 10:34:19 PM: April 17, 2017I just got word that yet another one of my ex boyfriends has just been classified as a violent offender. That makes a total of four. As I look back, I don't even know how I made it though all those terrible years during my early 20s.  I don't know what it is or was about my personality that seemed to attract such vicious and brutal men. Some were not all that brutal yet, but I now can see the trends.Anyway, I just got word of that and it sort of flipped me for a loop.Back to my books. I have exams coming up and projects to finish.Ellie

3/19/2017 1:04:53 AM: March 19, 2017 Wow, how time flies when you are busy. I am not on as much as I used to be because of my academic responsibilities. I continue to make all A’s and even I am at times amazed at the “ New Me”. In high school, grades were never a priority. I was mainly concerned with surviving  day to day in foster care, struggling through Juvi court hearings,  and planning on running away as I approached age 18. And that explains why I never got a High School diploma and later ended up with a GED degree. And here I am in College, quite proudly I might add, making all A’s,  and finally in a beautiful relationship with a girl who will soon finish her professional schooling and start her residency training. Go me and Go “Alice”. A couple of things have sort of been semi bothering me. I do not have a filter set on my email to block males. In the past I have gotten some truly nice mails from men who cared about my anorexia and domestic violence history. Thank you. However, I also in March 2017 continue to get a lot of really weird email from men who I guess just don’t bother to read my profile or journal. A Dom from Germany wants me to come and bear his children and be his eternal slave. I don’t think so. Not today and not ever. I also get a lot of one line emails such as how are you ? I am doing quite well and thank you for asking. Emails like this don’t so much bother me as make me ask, “ what’s the point” ? I am on here to mainly write because I find it soothing and I can freely express my thoughts and emotions. I do welcome decent intelligent emails, but please realize ( mainly you men) that I am in a female / female relationship and very very happy. I have no desire to break up a perfect relationship and come to live with you in India, Germany, or Louisiana. For those men who have not bothered to read my profile or journals, I am a submissive masochist in a primary relationship with a girl I call “Alice” here in my blogs.  With Alice’s approval, I also continue to serve another lesbian couple. I also on occasions serve yet a fourth woman, who is an old college friend of Alice.  Again, I am so not leaving all this for some 20 something guy with a dead end job or some Dom in a foreign country. Sorry for the rant here. I get on and I see I have twenty new admirers, 90 % of whom are guys. My email is 80% from guys who want to know how I am doing,  or want me to become their slave. Immediately no less.  Email for women tends to be more sympathetic, less self centered,  and usually far more interesting.  In my next journal entry I am going to write a bit about how my relationship is evolving with the Lesbian couple. It continues to be very interesting.  My books and my classes take priority. Not sure when it will be posted. And yes, I continue to exercise like a madwoman, and I am still at about 110 pounds. Oh yeah.... at the request of my lover, I now have some very subtle reddish highlights in my hair. All very tastefully done. I actually like it. A lot. Of course anything my GF wants or likes I will automatically like a lot . :-) Ellie

2/1/2017 1:20:49 AM: Feb. 2017Back in school. Heavy class schedule. I am loving the challenge. My self confidence is really increasing. My GF Alice has commented as well on how much I have changed. I am still a submissive masochist, but I now know i have choices and control over my life. I purposely choose to be what I am. before this I simply was what I was and accepted it. Guys took extreme advantage of that and I did not know any better.I have been getting an occasional hate mail letter. So far always from guys. It does not bother me at all. Years ago it might have, but not any longer. I have been asked what the relationship is between me and my GF Alice.  Yes we do have an S&M rich relationship, but THAT part of my life is kept private because Alice wants it that way. I wish I could spend more time on CS, but my studies come first along with serving the Dyke couple and Alice. I write and blog because I find it is like therapy. Ellie