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To be clear, i list myself as trans because it's what i wish to be, not what i am now.
i used to think of myself as straight with some bi tendencies...i know that that isn't true...as time has gone by and my ability to perform sexually with women has decreased to nothing really, i know i'm meant to be a woman sexually...to feel violated, penetrated, completely taken...i would love to find someone who wants to make the outside match how i feel inside...i would hope this person would want to strip my manhood beyond the point of recognition there was ever really a man here to begin with.
Generally, i don't dress,but it is the way of stripping the manhood i seek...the ability to do so is, at least in my mind, hindered by a need to make a living...if in a relationship with someone who wanted to take the time and effort to do so, i'd love to wind up like this permanently...if you are looking to break down, and remold me into a feminine ideal with few if any limits as far as where you could go...honestly, i may be a work that needs to progress...but if the time and training is put in...i think i can become a great girl for the right person...if you think that might be you, i hope you'll drop a line.

If progressing to a meeting is not something you see happening within a reasonable period of time, please pass me by. This is something i'm seeking in a real life sense, not something to play at online via webcam or telephone...and i don't see myself making major changes to my body and lil there is a solid relationship built up...once that's done, just about anything is possible.
Also, i prefer people somewhat close to me in age, i'm sure there are some great twenty/thirtysomethings out there, but i think when closer in age (approximately 5-10 years with some reasonable wiggle room), more is had in common and there's a better chance of success in a long term relationship. Please respect this preference. Additionally, as i have a touch of asthma, it is wise for me to avoid smoking, so please understand this.
If I view your profile and don't send a message, don't read too much into it. Send a message as I can be shy about making first contact. I know, not the best strategy here, but if you see something you like, let me know, we can strike up some dialogue and see what happens.

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8/20/2016 10:25:43 AM
Hello everyone, I know it's been quite a while since I've been on here.  Quite frankly, my focus has been on my health, and will remain as such, since I'm up against a long battle with cancer.  Have already beaten some odds, hopefully others are on their way towards falling as well.

This note is really just to let anyone I've known over the years from here that I'm still alive and kicking.  I don't see myself spending much time here, but some who know me do have my email address or phone number and should feel free to use it.  I'm not one of those who rush to the phone for a call or text if I'm sleeping, or undergoing some sort of treatment.  When I do see a message though, I do reply.

Hope all of you are doing better than I am, but don't take this the wrong way, I'm not on my death bed, but wanted some of you to know I'm still around (kinda).

Bye for now. 

4/12/2016 6:42:47 AM
don't you just love it when people like Sissytask ask you for money in their first contact, then act offended when you call them on it...telling me i'm not real because i won't send them money right away.  Just given the sheer numbers, you'd think if this person was real, they'd have a line of people out the door trying to use her services....i mean how many people want to feminize compared to how many want feminization?   it boggles the mind.

10/28/2015 4:31:01 AM
hello everyone...just a quick note to let you all know i likely won't be around much for the foreseeable future...am dealing with health challenges that must take precedence.

10/6/2015 7:09:02 PM
made a call today to a therapist...if i am going to be what i want to be, i need to get the process started...haven't heard back or made an appointment yet, but i will...it's time for the butterfly to emerge

4/25/2015 11:48:33 PM

A lot of people ask me what happened to me that I want to be feminized. Ever since I was small, I wondered what it would be like to be a girl. Even in my 20s, and probably in my teens, I wished I could feel what it was like to be able to get pregnant. It is something I was always jealous of. It always seemed to me that women had the power. At no time then, did I ever seriously consider anything resembling transitioning, and I'm not even sure I knew really what that meant.

For a few years, I did bondage modeling. A photo from those days is even in my profile. A few times I was asked to cross dress for photos, but I resisted that. I was always concerned I'd be seen in the photos, though if I was recognized outside of the NYC BDSM scene, no one ever mentioned it. I think in part if was because I thought I might like it too much.

In the late 90s, a Domme I'd met from AOL wanted to see me suck another man's cock. It was awkward, and there were 2 other ladies watching it saying things as I made my clumsy attempt. He was wearing a rubber, which was really no help, but that was something I'd asked about, because I was dumb about such things. Eventually he came, but what really excited me was when he was told to suck mine as well. I really enjoyed the 69 position with him. This was a bit surprising as I've never really loved receiving oral, even to this day. As awkward as that was, it was my first experience with a man, and I did enjoy it.

Fast forward about 8 years, and I go and visit another Domme, in the Portland OR area. I stayed there for about 4 or 5 days, and she had a TS slave. The TS and I never really interacted sexually, though when I'd found out she was castrated, I asked if I could see. She let me see, and I was really impressed at the commitment she had. She wasn't far along in her transition, but she was fixed, so there was no turning back for her. The Mistress and I had made plans for me to come to her and be trained by her, in part by being kept in isolation. Life got in the way of that actually happening (on her end), as the TS went through some issues which made the Domme think twice about how far she wanted to go. To this day, I think of her often. I've tried reaching out to her a few times, but to no avail. I'm not even sure if she's at all in the lifestyle anymore. I hope she is, because from what little I saw of her, she really had an inventive mind and a gift. If she reads this, I hope she says hello.

This experience, along with a person I'd been having online conversations with made me realize this was what I need to be. I dallied with female hormones for a short while back in around 2008, give or take a year, and I did get some breast growth, though small, it makes me smile when I see it. It also makes me want more. The hormones may have had an effect on my functionality, maybe not, as I was having some problems even before the hormones. Nowadays, and erection is very very rare. I'm really ok with that, as I've always enjoyed activities that violated me more than my entering another. Don't get me wrong, I love women, I loved being with them sexually, but it's not who I am anymore. Now, I see myself as the woman sexually. I remember an encounter with a lady back in New York where I felt my voice getting higher when we got sexual, and eventually, she fucked me with her strapon as opposed to my fucking her, which was an option available at that time.

For the longest time, I've let life get in the way. Now, if someone took me on, I'd be so committed to making the changes I need. There is almost no aspect of being feminized I can see saying no to, if it was a person I knew in a real life sense. By that I mean a face to face relationship. I'm ready to be castrated, I'm ready for the hormones, for the implants if that's what's wanted.

I'm ready. And if they are male, female, or trans, I hope someone is ready to take me.


4/11/2015 1:41:35 PM
gawd...ran into another pic collector...second he gets what he wants, he disappears...how many times do i need to run into the same thing...this one goes by the name Lord Shrek...he pushed me to get a plane ticket, once i did, there was no contact from him again...so now, if someone isn't within reasonable driving distance, or willing to come to me, there will not be a visit.

3/30/2015 1:54:03 PM
there are times when i wonder what i'm doing here...is the goal of some people just to get an agreement to come visit and then see them disappear?  Recently i booked a plane ticket to see a Dom who says he has interest in emasculating, degrading, and humiliating me...of course, sick fuck that i am, i was very interested...ever since the flight was booked there has been practically no communication from him whatsoever.

Last year, i go to visit someone about 1000 miles or more away, and he comes to the airport in a rented cargo van, then tells me he plans to move from where we're meeting, and while i'm there i need to do yardwork for his mother.  How am i supposed to get a sense from that.  This is a reason i don't do anything drastic until i'm face to face with another.  If you want to fuck with me, at least show up for it.

3/21/2015 1:05:23 PM
sometimes i find myself wondering why i haven't found what i've sought so far...i think it's because i want someone to take it from me...and that goes in to some gray areas for people...which i understand...but the need to feel taken consumes me...maybe it seems to take some responsibility from me for my own desires, but we're wired how we're wired...this one always seems to like it best when someone doesn't ask first

2/5/2015 4:03:57 PM
Apparently collarme..er collarspace has chosen to remove my photos from this profile...one of the photos was of me, i believe, but since they've totally deleted it, i will not be placing photos on the profile anymore....remember freedom of speech?

11/16/2014 11:40:26 AM
grrr...another visit, another disappointment...the Domme i visited was nice, but we didn't connect...when will i learn?

10/6/2014 6:02:43 PM
Day 6, still locked in to my cb6000...found myself dripping yesterday after speaking with someone...it wasn't even a sexual talk, just got up, and there was the trail...i find myself so focused on being locked...not sure if that's good, bad, or what.

9/30/2014 8:29:06 PM
Added a photo of myself locked in a CB-6000.  Taking a challenge of a month from a f.l. group.  Should be interesting to see if i make it.

9/21/2014 2:07:09 AM
just ordered a cb-6000 today...there is an online challenge going on starting on the first...so i decided i'd give it a try...hope it's a good test of myself...we'll see

5/22/2014 3:16:37 PM

just got back from a trip to meet someone from here...someone at least relatively local (a couple hundred miles)...what i found was that with a man, it's really just about the sex for me...maybe i'm less submissive than i thought i was, or i've just been away from it too long to have an appreciation for the other side...or maybe i just wasn't feeling connected, or a combination of the three...wish i knew the answer to that...who knows if i'll ever find out


3/22/2014 10:22:00 AM

after a brief flirtation with someone from the Midwest it occurs to me that unless someone is local enough so that i can really get to know them, it seems a little pointless to pursue something. Please be local enough (within 100-150 miles) and available enough that we can really get to know each other before asking for a commitment of sorts.  To be clear, the person from the Midwest didn't ask for that prior, but i found myself wanting to go there and then realized it wasn't feasible as i didn't really know the person, so i pulled away.

 

 


8/31/2013 9:36:42 PM

omg...never realized how needy so many of us sound to be in our profiles until i actually read a good number of trans=sub profiles....am embarrassed that i see many similarities to what i'd thought about in the past..girls...you need to read your profile as thought you were looking for something....if you really think you sound sub in what you ask for, you really don't know the definition of the word


12/9/2012 10:15:20 AM

Just wondering...why is it the same dominants who proclaim to have such a distaste for online time wasters also want to be served in some way before ever meeting...what exactly is that?


6/30/2012 8:25:20 AM

exciting news for me...my transfer to Las Vegas has been approved...will leave NY around 8/1 and start there on the 13th...hope to meet new friends out there!


6/18/2012 5:14:49 AM

am starting to think it's time to either 'shit or get off the pot' with bdsm...i wonder if i make things harder than they need to be...and there comes a time in life where you have to follow your desires, otherwise what is the point...so maybe i'm ripe for the plucking...who knows?


1/9/2012 4:56:19 PM

am considering a move to the Las Vegas area....i may put potential relationships on hold for a bit until i find out if that is going to go through...no sense in starting something up and then having to move.


12/26/2011 4:31:07 PM

Beware....i think i wish to be a total slave...but i seem to get scared when it's in my face....you have been warned!


10/21/2011 5:01:13 PM

why do i have this want to head to a gloryhole lately?


9/5/2011 9:17:05 AM

wow....who knew that i'd suddenly get so popular with 23 year old sub females....so many in my 'who's viewing me' section!


9/3/2011 1:21:32 PM

ok...i've come across something in a lot of profiles here and on that i'm curious about....what is the huge attraction to being fucked by blacks, or cucking a man with the 'black bull'...now i'll admit, it's not my cup of tea, but when i read about it....it seems like that is the main kink...

 

i know i know....it comes off as my kink is ok and yours is fucked up, but i just am trying to get that mindset.


8/26/2011 5:29:14 PM

will be evacuating the area due to Hurricane Irene....don't be surprised it if takes awhile for me to get back to you if you message me....probably won't be back until Monday or Tuesday...to all my friends in the area....be safe!


7/25/2011 1:09:11 PM

in case you are wondering why i'm perving your profiles....first of all...i do tend to perv them...but looking for those interested in sub men....since yesterday, my search function has been a bit messed up, and it's listing those interested only in sub women as well....hopefully collarme gets this glitch under control soon!


7/24/2011 11:40:52 AM

can someone tell me what the deal is with all the banner ads for one site in so many profiles now....is collarme adding this with/without consent?


7/11/2011 8:47:54 AM

ok...here's a new one...i viewed a profile for evilmaster2...he then emails me and lets me know one of his goals was to have his slave seduce vanilla women and then let them know they were a gloryhole slut afterwards...now i know we should be tolerant of others kinks....but that is a truly hateful way to treat a vanilla woman....or any woman for that matter...and puts the slave and woman's health at risk....be careful if this one messages you....i don't normally add things like this to the profile, but what he describes is very risky to both slave and woman.


1/14/2011 6:00:53 PM

sent a local member a note a few weeks back..never heard anything...ok...that happens i guess...since they never replied, i thought i'd send a second message only to find out they'd blocked me for no apparent reason...i mean...my message to them wasn't rude or anything.

 

Should they at some point wonder why they can't find someone....maybe they'll look back and realize it helps to show people to send you respectful messages some respect back.

 

 


10/28/2010 4:24:22 PM

wow....i'm starting to see why the women here get so frustrated....since opening myself up to male doms, i've had one try and take the express route to a cyber jackoff....which is not what i'm looking for, and another tell me to pee myself and put the undies i wear while doing so in a plastic bag....

is it me, or is it unreasonable for someone to only go to places like that once they actually get to know them....


7/15/2010 6:25:05 PM
time for a break...love and luck to all

6/1/2010 2:41:39 PM
remember the good old days when someone actually had to show their face to mess with you?   grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

2/19/2010 5:29:29 PM
kind of bummed today...i was supposed to meet someone from a different site...i'd put in for time off, made many arrangements to go...and at the last minute...it gets cancelled...sometimes i long for the pre-internet BDSM scene...where to disappoint someone, you actually had to show up at some point....grrrrrrrrrr

2/1/2009 6:46:12 AM
found an interesting kind of sexual roadmap of sorts...thought it fun to look at...here's the link for mine....http://www.humansexmap.com/showmap.php?mapid=map4985b56fb9e188.46718811

1/18/2009 4:00:45 AM
started Nutri System on monday...so far, i'm down 10 lbs...not a bad start i think...have a good 60 or 70 to go.

12/26/2008 7:52:01 AM
ok...maybe someone can tell me...what's the deal with so many women giving the camera the finger...and then posting it on their profile?  all it shows to me is a lack of class...and not that it's gong to matter to them but as far as i'm concerned...when i see that...it's on to the next profile for me.

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